sincity1

There have been so many times recently that life really just makes me smile. It used to make me smile all the time, but then things changed. I got to that point when all of the cynicism of my youth was no longer ironic, bitter, angry, or triumphant. It just became sad. All of mans faults, all of the universes injustices, and all of my own doubt went from being badges of honor to depressing realities.

But recently Ive come to realize that for every negative aspect of reality that Id glossed over in my youth, there was at least one positive. I never appreciated the way in which a couple stared at their new child. I never saw the new hope that emerges every time a teenager gets into trouble for the first time. I never realized the immortal beauty of wasted children at a rock concert, glaring up at an idiot singer as if he/she was a god.

SO now Im starting to see it all. And once again, I think the beauty outweighs the horror. And through it all, absolutely nothing has changed in the world.