silvereve

I really like the scene in the movie Lion King when Rafiki whaps Simba on the head and when asked he explains "it doesn't matter it's all in the past"
Hakuna Matata. Nope, tried that. I liked it, worked for a couple of years and whammo! The circle of life is biting my ass in a true circular fashion.

I like to feel safe, who doesn't? I like knowing that I graduated high school and have chosen to never go back. I like knowing I've left a lot of people and places behind, some with regret, but knowing that it was my choice to end things. I'm happy not going back. I don't like it when it comes back and not of my choice. (who's a little control freak? I AM! I AM!)

So, my ex called today. His last words to me five years ago were "fuck you". Mine were "grow up". I know, not the hard ass with great come back, but oh well.

This year has been a lot of history finding me. I've had enough. I know my cards read that if I don't deal with it, I'll never move forward. *whine* I thought personal development would be big enough to appease the cards.

Can I take "You are so not off the hook" for a thousand Alex.......


So regardless the coversation went well, not like peas and carrots, but something had to taken of and that is all. O'K. Maybe this a chapter I can really close for good now and brace for the next whammy.