silent_screams

fuckin awesome party tonight for my bday. woot.
hopefully all goes well.

everybody and everything is pathetic.
fuck off.
im ready to fucking leave.

i think i am getting more and more depressed each day.
i cant stop crying.
i hate feelng this way.
why am i so dependant on others?


sorry i havent emailed you yet B.
it'll happen soon..heh.

i want to fucking scream and tear everything i see apart.
and i want to fucking KILL him.
you dont know who 'him' is.
but im going to slit his throat.

well fuck. i just wrote a huge entry and it just got deleted..i fucking hate that.
so lets see...
i havent realized that its been almost two months since i last updated..so weird. been real busy as usual..though always find the time to smoke da pot
i just got over being horribly sick with bronchiolitis. fuckin pneumonia(sp?) of the bronchiol tubes. i had a temp....
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whos going to see the show of the SG's in seattle on 28th?
im looking like an idiot...but i dont go to shows that often...for the tickets...do i just have to go there and hope that there are tickets for sale?
heh heh
im off to smoke now

**EDITED**
i wonder who reads my journal anymore, since no one can answer my question. *sigh* whats...
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bleh...whats with all the new people...all the time!
it just makes me less and less interested in this site all the time.
i mean, sure when i first came to this site, i didnt make friends with all the girls...but how many girls are there now? 800? there used to be like half that a couple years ago.
this site is becoming more like every...
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im disappointed in SG...*shakes head*

i lost the url for the article i saw...but it wasnt good.

poor girls

i hate so many people

i wonder why i value friendship so much. well i guess i dont as much as i used to.
i find it a bigger and bigger hassle everyday to try and find or talk to friends.
for a long time, all i depended on with my friends. they were my life...i put everything else behind my friends...even my actual happiness. i dont know why i...
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