shristy

hellz yeah... well happy birthday! hope you have a good brithday weekend. an I'm deff ganna enjoy both weekends. we are hunting a girl for the 21-23 to get fucked up with an have an insane freaky kinky fest!!!

Yeah its a pretty good hobby!! Now if only I could make this my FT job an not have to struggle!!! I have 20 fallowers since I made my twitter page. Had another cam site message me info to get on there site so tomorrow I'm ganna fill out the shit to get on there an try that new site... Suits me a lot better b/c its got squirter in the name. lmao so once I'm up an running on that maybe it will help get my name out an I can make more $$$. shit I'm on 3cam sites now just dont get on the other 2much b/c they are not weekly pay checks. an I need a weekly check ya know... But hoping since I'v been getting more attention here an on my FB fan page that maybe that will bring in more bizz... *fingers crossed* just a/b every time i get on here i have 2-3 friend requests so I HOPE I'LL BE GOING PINK SOON AN DO BETTER WITH MY WEB CAM STUFF!! always gotta take baby steps before ya can run... just sucks im so inpatient.

Thanks hun. That means alot!!! I talked to him today for a sec. an he sounds ok the pain is going down. Just not sure yet if there ganna have to do surgery again. Last time they cut out a section of his bowel. So now there is a problem with what they did then. So we are hoping they wont have to give him a clostomy again but who knows what they will do. I just hope they fix him an make it all better. I'm sick of him goin in an out of the hospital. Its not a good situation! smh An I'm stayin as strong as I can. Trying to get my $$$ up so I have a way to get up to him if need be... an thanks. I'm working out hard needing my stomach toned. bout to walk to the bank a/b a mile up the road an cash my checks then try to get some more working out in b/c i gotta modeling job for a site this couple in town runs where they sell all kinds of whole sale clothing. ganna get $100/hr there so hope they wanna keep using me after we shoot once. not sure if they just use girls once or if they try to keep the same girl(s) on deck for all they clothing shoots they do. Either way its $$$ I can use. Also just got an offer to do a music video that pays 1/2 up front an 1/2 after filming is done. So waiting to hear back on that one. *fingers crossed* so keep yours crossed too. Need all the posative thoughts I can get right now. HOping this is why no reg. job has pulled threw for me... Maybe my BIG BREAK IS FINALLY HERE!!! *hope so* knock on wood* I NEED SOME GOOD IN MY LIFE RIGHT BOUT NOW!!!

CoastalNomad!!! I KNOW RIGHT!!! Only fucked up thing is some more bs on FB made him mad today but think it opened up a door to the right direction b/c i got out alot i needed to say... an it brought out some tears. so at least i know he still cares.

LittleJohn22..... I know!!! It helped us some. just something we have to work threw. hes not sure if he wants us to be an US AGAIN... but im not stopping till i know that theres no chance left or i have him back period! I'm a strong believer if YOU LOVE SOMEONE... YOU NEVER GIVE UP!!! well at least till ya know its a lost cause... or ur wasting ya time b/c u will never fix it...

Z3180... Yeah thats how I feel. But sometimes my feelings tell me to do stupid things like addmitting I cheated in the begining. :/ But couldnt live with knowing I did that an him loving me how he does an me not sayin something. Now I wish I hadn't... But cant change it.

MillerTime1981.. GOD NO!!! I'm a firm believer if you make your bed you have to sleep in that mug. I couldnt dream of having an abortion. Not unless it was a high risk pregnancy an me or the baby could die an they were almost posative it would happen. An even then not sure I could do that... I dont know how far along I am. Took a test last week an it was posative. So was ganna make an apt. an make sure before I tell him. And theres no way its anyone else's. I cheated 2years ago when we started dating. It would be 3yrs oct. 23 if we werent on the outs right now. Hoping i can fix it. But not looking too good. :/

LittleJohn22... I know he would stick by me an raise the baby even if we dont work out. Thats not the issue. Its us being on the outs that is. :/ But thats my fault for being honest. And I hear ya. I feel the same way. the sooner he knows the better. But I want to know for sure before I say anything about it. an thats only b/c i'v had a false pos. b4

thanks!!! you'll be glad you did!!! starting tomorrow I will be uploading videos and pics daily!!! so keep a look out for all the goods... I will be posting some squirting videos and panty fucking videos...

Yeah it is. Even if I did finally come to terms with letting them go some where that I cant check on them all the time. But I'm thankful I have them just a bit longer! I love my puppies!!!