I love to sing. I love to dance.I love to write. I love to love. I am a man of many things----and the love I have is a gift-not from anyone but I gift of existence, for to exist is to be loved. It is a given. It is the life that runs through us. Even when we displease, go counter, or act destructive-we are...
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I am waking up in a tither. Usually already mad at the world and all flustered. This is what greets me as I rise from bed. Then it falls back in on itself and I get mad for being mad. The rest of the morning is spent feeling lonely-alienated from myself- and trying to figure out how to get out of the hell I'm in....
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modeling tonight ...a little nervous since I have not modeled much since the bike accident. And me---being the type A personality that I am- have already choreographed the moves and they are difficult. Why do I put myself through the ringer?? hope you all are doing well...
lucerne:
Good luck! You'll do great :)
shelbs22:
@lucerne .. Thanks.. I really appreciate your encouragement..Sending you the same!! Hope you have a wonderful rest of the week...it is so nice being connected to you..:)
o.k. I am an art figure model and am hairy..I have shaved my body hair off--all of it- many times. I have a gig in less than a week and it has grown back...how many think I should shave it off or keep it?? I am sort of lost. I want my figure to be seen clearly yet I want the manly hair...Hmmm what do...
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shelbs22:
Will do!! :) Thanks!!
shelbs22:
@usagimomo will do!!
tears...tears..tears...the love that was...the love that isn't...the abuse that is present..the love that is longed for all bring------ tears...tears....tears...
I have decided to let go of a lot...Let go of pursuing woman, let go of hating myself for being a nude model, let go of hating my life in general....just let it go and accept with gratitude the joy of being alive, human, and able to choose to leave behind habits that only serve to hurt my self and others.
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tulipe:
Glad I can help someone as cool as you! I mean really, how awesome is teaching yoga? I just know that you'll be fine. *hugs*
shelbs22:
@gordonramsher...love!!
Sometimes out of the blue I start crying, feeling hurt and pain that seeps through when I am not aware. I could be anywhere, like soup boiling over they come out pf my pot of pain So many thoughts-like trying to hide them, or giving into them, or stuffing them--but after I feel the pain,and the the tears-- I feel better and more whole...
Starting to teach Yoga is mind blowing..so much to know..so much to understand and incorporate into a way of life. But I love it!! Remember to practice self love and compassion for your selves. It is so easy to judge our selves harshly, or berate our abilities. It all starts with the act of embracing your self ,holding your self with love, and move out...
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i'm sort of down..needing a lift..anyone care to help me?? Need some emotional support...thanks
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lucerne:
I hope you're feeling better by now x
shelbs22:
@Lucerne.... I am...and working hard to stay positive and happy..I'm learning that "being happy" does not just happen. Like anything else it takes practice, commitment ,and intention to make"happiness" manifest. So much of my life was traumatic..now I am trying to change those patterns. Sending joy and happiness to you Lucerne..You inspire me more than you know..:) And your support means sooo much to me..:) Happy we are friends!!
i'm sort of down..needing a lift..anyone care to help me?? Need some emotional support...thanks
shelbs22:
@magali Thanks!!