I'm not fond of ranting on my blogs and I hate to put negative energy out there, but I feel I need to get this out of my system.
I mentioned on here before that I'm leaving my job, still working here until the end of the year, but in transition mode. It's less than ideal, but that's ok. And there are trying moments, but I'm doing what I need to and what's asked to not spend more energy on the whole thing.
Today, I just really feel unappreciated and like I'm not all I'm cracked up to be. There have been blatant attempts to make this clear from me from my boss: like cutting me out of conversations involving what I deal with or redoing my work (incorrectly, mind you) to prove she can do it. Ok, fine. It sucks and I think it's lame, but I can also see how stupid and silly it is to put energy into fighting with me rather than just admitting I do a great job and should be used the best way possible while I'm here. Thing is, I see this and I know it, but it's wearing.
Take that in combination with my frustration with having to do things twice just because egos are flying, and I'm a bit on edge. And then add in that I'm tired and trying to work things out with my new clients and my new business, and you get me in doubt of myself.
I know I don't need to be this way, but right now, I am. Thanks for letting me vent and get it out so I can cleanse and move along!
In better news, all of you who have commented on my boss' rudeness have really helped me get through the days.
And, a lovely drink with the lovely Brooklyn helped me get in touch with the EXCITEMENT of working for myself and building stuff I care about and love and can do the right way!!! It took me just spilling what's there and then hearing her say it back to me to help me re-realize the big stuff and joy ahead.
I've just gotta keep that in mind and keep moving to there.
xxo
I mentioned on here before that I'm leaving my job, still working here until the end of the year, but in transition mode. It's less than ideal, but that's ok. And there are trying moments, but I'm doing what I need to and what's asked to not spend more energy on the whole thing.
Today, I just really feel unappreciated and like I'm not all I'm cracked up to be. There have been blatant attempts to make this clear from me from my boss: like cutting me out of conversations involving what I deal with or redoing my work (incorrectly, mind you) to prove she can do it. Ok, fine. It sucks and I think it's lame, but I can also see how stupid and silly it is to put energy into fighting with me rather than just admitting I do a great job and should be used the best way possible while I'm here. Thing is, I see this and I know it, but it's wearing.
Take that in combination with my frustration with having to do things twice just because egos are flying, and I'm a bit on edge. And then add in that I'm tired and trying to work things out with my new clients and my new business, and you get me in doubt of myself.
I know I don't need to be this way, but right now, I am. Thanks for letting me vent and get it out so I can cleanse and move along!
In better news, all of you who have commented on my boss' rudeness have really helped me get through the days.
And, a lovely drink with the lovely Brooklyn helped me get in touch with the EXCITEMENT of working for myself and building stuff I care about and love and can do the right way!!! It took me just spilling what's there and then hearing her say it back to me to help me re-realize the big stuff and joy ahead.
I've just gotta keep that in mind and keep moving to there.
xxo
brooklyn:
Well, it IS EXCITING! This is just the beginning of a HUGE FUTURE!