sep05

So I called. She answered and said hello and that was about it. Actually that was it. Maybe she hung up maybe it got cut off, but it sounded as though she was at work. I heard alot of chatter in the background. Plus she had told me sometimes she picks up shifts on Tuesdays. I tried calling back a minute later but it went...
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Well she totally fucked up today. She called and left a message on my cell meant for Matt's mom about him coming home from the airport. Then after she realized it, she sent me a text saying that she chose him. Talk about a bitch.

I ended up sending her a long rant on how she's a horrible person for doing this to me and...
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I need to amass goods. My apartment is pretty empty. Futon. TV. Coffee table. Bookshelf. Cheap Ikea chair. I need to buy some real furniture, but I hate deciding this kind of stuff without someone's opinion. The only person whose opinion I'd trust is my on again/off again girlfriend. Lately she's just utterly unable to manage her time and in all likelihood we won't go...
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Arrr. I'm totally out of the army now. No longer affiliated with the United States military in any way. Well except for the final paycheck I'm waiting for. And well, I think I'm gonna keep the haircut too. I seem to have lost the ability to grow hair in the past 7 years.

I went in to work this weekend to fill out some health...
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I think I'm going to start seeing a therapist.

I don't know what to do. Seven months later I'm still in shock that someone can do the things that she does. Yet I'm still here.

Everyone has something. Not in a material sense but more like a purpose. Some people devote their life to God, some to their family. Education. Job. Money. Acquiring goods. Hobbies. Cars. Knowledge. An Alma Mater. A sports team. Getting laid. Actually come to think of it I guess this sums it all up...

"Choose life. Choose a job. Choose a career. Choose a family. Choose...
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Waiting on the cable guy. I just bought a new tv and I love it except for two things 1) It's way too bright. I'll never be able to watch tv in the dark again. 2) It seems as though it was dropped when it was shipped (box was slightly damaged). All it did was just bow the right edge of the screen.

The brightness...
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Ignorance truly is bliss. Sometimes I wish I were simple-minded.

Could someone just take maybe 15 or 20 IQ points away from me?

I have no idea what to do, with my life or anything. All I know is that the job is good and pretty much is the only thing keeping me from just picking up and moving.

I broke up with Ann last week. I just can't deal with the fact that she will not stop talking to and seeing her ex. It's not so much...
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