Well today was pleasant.......
7am:
I work at another store to help them out and I realize it is for no true purpose other then to give the boss an extra day off. I am stuck with new people and someone on their very first day. I am not super woman. I am the average woman. I did what I could and managed as best I could and did it with a smile. I did it with a smile because at this point in my life I understand that getting clouded with frustration and anger is for nothing. I did it with a smile because If I wasn't smiling he other people wouldn't be either. I want to be happy and I want everyone around me to be happy. Seeing people smile usually makes people happy...
8 hours later..
I come home and resolve to clean house. I do so for
3 hours. I sit down to write. (on paper) I can't. I turn on my video game and my friend who is also my roommate comes home. She is obviously upset.
*Note roommate is either sorta ok or NOT
She just moved in on Saturday and is still not fully in. After she is settled she lets it off her chest why she is upset. Typical of me, I objectify her problem and look for a solution. I also do this with my feelings which is a good reason why I am a "commit-a-phob" (my friend puts it). I explain what I think she should do. She says I don't understand and rejects my advise then continues to re-explain everything again, getting more upset along the way. I am patient and listen. I understand but she doesn't hear that because she is clouded with emotions. I try to explain and again I am told I don't understand. I relent. I am of no help....
I am of no help.
I feel conflicted today, to put my mood vaguely.
I miss my Dark Darling obsessively so.
He is such a very busy spider now in his new web...
Again I find myself entangled alone within my own web.......
7am:
I work at another store to help them out and I realize it is for no true purpose other then to give the boss an extra day off. I am stuck with new people and someone on their very first day. I am not super woman. I am the average woman. I did what I could and managed as best I could and did it with a smile. I did it with a smile because at this point in my life I understand that getting clouded with frustration and anger is for nothing. I did it with a smile because If I wasn't smiling he other people wouldn't be either. I want to be happy and I want everyone around me to be happy. Seeing people smile usually makes people happy...
8 hours later..
I come home and resolve to clean house. I do so for
3 hours. I sit down to write. (on paper) I can't. I turn on my video game and my friend who is also my roommate comes home. She is obviously upset.
*Note roommate is either sorta ok or NOT
She just moved in on Saturday and is still not fully in. After she is settled she lets it off her chest why she is upset. Typical of me, I objectify her problem and look for a solution. I also do this with my feelings which is a good reason why I am a "commit-a-phob" (my friend puts it). I explain what I think she should do. She says I don't understand and rejects my advise then continues to re-explain everything again, getting more upset along the way. I am patient and listen. I understand but she doesn't hear that because she is clouded with emotions. I try to explain and again I am told I don't understand. I relent. I am of no help....
I am of no help.
I feel conflicted today, to put my mood vaguely.
I miss my Dark Darling obsessively so.
He is such a very busy spider now in his new web...
Again I find myself entangled alone within my own web.......