sebau

Some time has past and my dark darling has moved on to college. He is only an hour and a half away. Oddly I feel like this distance between us does not mean that there is true distance....

knee deep in dreams of you
clover and streams of you
wading through reams of you
resting my head.

This is starting to be a curious month. I have many changes that are happening at once and I am distracted.
I have had much conflict with my roomate and friend lately.
I am yet again surrounded by drama involving co-workers again. One of them is having a partey tomorrow ngiht and a bunch of people from work are going to be there. I will...
Read More

So I have been busy with many things for the past few months. Obviously since I have made no entries.
I have been working. I have been shopping for a car I dislike it. I have a boy in my bed... he just woke up. I will return to him now.......

So the birthday horrays have worn off and here I am in the "omg I'm almost 30". I'm still young dammit but I'm single... I think I am a nice good person with lots of diverse interests but I haven't been asked out in like 8mos! I don't have any friends that are my own age that I can spend personal time with so I...
Read More

Today was awesome! Thanks for all the birthday notes!
I had a great time at Universal Studios! I got up early with 3 hours of sleep and spent the day there and then after met other friends for dinner at a quiet little Italian place on Venice. Very neeto gifts too! My mom and sis mailed me a gift. My Bapa (grandfather) mailed me a...
Read More

Sometimes I wonder if people realize that they treat others like machines. Just something I notice when I have to run a register at work. Why are people so surprised when I talk to them like they exist? Is it because I am working and they don't expect to be noticed for who they are? Why wouldn't they want to be noticed that they were...
Read More

Today was cra~zy.
I went to work at 11:15am, waited around till 1pm (because of miscommunication) checking my notes then went to my interview at 2pm. I was 45mins early. I got a drink and waited anxiously. I had my interview... It went very well! It was 1.5 hrs with one guy and then another 1.5 hrs with another. A 3hr interveiw... I have silly...
Read More

Today was moderately productive...
I cleaned the house, did all the laundry, paid the bills and prepaired breakfast for tomorrow. I am pretty nervous about tomorrow.
*deep breaths*

This certainly is going to be a crazy week...
I need to be Business Girl tomorrow and put on my professional face. I think I am more nervous about tomorrow because I have to stifle my true...
Read More

AAAHHH!!!! I have cooties!! Well ok not THE Cooties but yikes..
My skin is sooooo dry that I have all these little bumpies on my arms and they are all itchy. Yuk.. Of course I called my mommy first thing. HAHA 28 and callin the mom.. Well she did make me feel better when she confirmed what I assumed. It's just fuckin dry out in...
Read More

Another Saturday night I will be spending at work. I have to close and that means I wont get out till 2am. *sigh*

I really need to get a life... It's bad enough that I have to close Saturday nights but there's no excuse for me not doing anything on my friday night.
But I suppose I can use the excuse that I don't have...
Read More

Another sleepless night...
Another day in the life of Xemet...

It has been very overcast the past few weeks. They call it June Gloom. It seems to be adding to my mood.
I am defiatley gloomy of late.
La sigh...

I have been painting obsessively.. It's about time too. I haven't painted since I lived in upstate NY. About 2 years I think. I have...
Read More