sebastian6

I feel like I'm in a bit of a fog these days. It started with the weather change, from cold to warm than back to cold and now warm again. These Indiana fluctuations in temperature are taking me for a ride this year. I got some back pain a couple weeks ago and tooks some pain meds for that, then got this tooth ache thing, which I took more pain meds for. I don't think I've gone overboard with it, but I definitely notice that the weather fluctuations, the pains, and the drugs all mix me into a cloudy soup of sorts.

I'm dreaming about the summer- about the warmth of the sun on my stone porch. I'm thinking about studentless walks downtown in the amber tinged dusk of Bloomington. My body is still in winter stasis- sick, pained, lazy, torpid. My mind is in summer though. Pretty soon it will all come together and I'll wake-up from my winter sheets and greet the day.

I suppose that's what the lull before Spring is all about. I feel like everything is in some sort of holding pattern until a season is settled upon. And don't get me wrong- I'm not unhappy. Certainly I'm more grumpy than I should be, but I'm not at all unhappy. I'm okay with this sleepy status quo for a few more weeks, til March nears its end and the flora and fauna begin to wake-up. I'll wake up with it.

But for now- what a great metaphor for winter dreariness: getting your tooth drilled in the cold early morning on your birthday. Lovely vignette!

I'm watching a lot of Venture Bros., Harvey Birdman, Invader Zim, and Aqua Teen. I've come to the conclusion that ATHF is about the most nihilistic cartoon I've ever seen.

-s6