scotyrock

I've been feeling very unfulfilled lately. Like I contribute nothing to myself or humanity. Like all I do is make lots of money and that's it. I feel like I contribute nothing. I no longer have a great love to live for, she was taken from me a little over a year ago. So I feel lost, like I'm just a waste of space.

I have been contemplating re-enlisting, but that was definitely a love/hate relationship. But I at least felt like I had a purpose, even if it was just doing everything I could to bring all my friends home and alive with me. Screw the government and their agenda, my agenda was to always protect the men I loved that are closer than brothers. A few of them have died in Iraq and I almost blame myself for their deaths. Like if I had been there I could have made a difference. I know that isn't true, but I still feel that way.

Does anyone else ever feel this lack of purpose?

The feeling like you are not using the skills and training that you have, like it's just going to waste?