so i have this absurd obsession with the organization of things within space. those who know me well, know my tendency to constantly reorganize my furniture. however, my friends also like to note that i am alternately obsessed with organization and explosively messy. i've been struggling to figure out the reasons for this for quite some time. since i got my powerbook [which is completely silver] i have beeen obsessing over making my entire home-office-workspace-thing entirely silver, white, black and clear. i even try to use black coffee mugs to match my black coasters... strange....
in other news, ii've found an awesome road-trip buddy, [no other intentions, mind you.. i have my reasons] but she and i are so different in so many ways, it makes me nervous. i pray i don't fuck this up by being attracted to her.
in other news, ii've found an awesome road-trip buddy, [no other intentions, mind you.. i have my reasons] but she and i are so different in so many ways, it makes me nervous. i pray i don't fuck this up by being attracted to her.
I drove through L.G. today and had to drop something off at the old house. It was the first time i have been there since the last. I waned to cry the I stopped and thought about the typical. I wonder if i were still living here if I would be where i am now,
in life so to speak, would we have split when we did, would i have been with ryan, would i be pregnant and so on and so on. these are always the things i think about its weird. The van is still there along with the hard work we did with the slate planters. the shitty shed with the cow horns,. I dont miss that place at all, it just brought back so many memories.
In other notes of memories i have cleaned out every box and i found all the letters you wrote me, the rose petals i saved( i am sucha dork) i have yet been able to bring myself to throw them out, haha.. maybe im not a dork just pathetic, hmmm, well
it is nice knowing all is well at your end. glad to know u have a traveling buddy, gawd knows i would have never been able to do those rides with you!
talk to you soon...