schobeleth

No news as of yet if he's gone yet. I've been way too busy the past week or so, but I wanted to say something important. My aunt Rita said that it's best if we don't come to see him right now. She wants us to remember him how he was when he was healthy. He had both his legs amputated and one arm. My dad said he's going to try to get to his funeral..

Over the past few years I've been going through a lot. I've come to find myself, my music taste, my tastes in everything. I've come to adulthood, and.. I've made plans to move out, finally. I hate to make it seem like.. I have something against my parents, I don't.

It's just.. who actually enjoyed the time they spent going nuts living with their parents? I'm seriously looking forward to this last year of HS, moving out and immigrating to the UK to stay with my best friend. Me, him, and my other best friend are going to start practicing immediately with our band there afterwards while going to classes and such.

I'm going to be staying with him this Christmas, too, to get a general feel of what it's like over there, but I know for a fact that I'm definately immigrating there. He said there's a ton of stuff there with everything I'm rediculously into, like.. the occult, vampires, vampirism, pagan religions, etc. Also, if you look at it as a whole, Europe is gigantic cesspool of Metal.

I belong there ._. Not here, where everybody is the same and everything is the same, every day I go throug is the same and the censorship is rediculous and the expectations of what is "normal" is also ludicrous.

Here's a perfect situation of what he told me, that truly defines the difference between there and here:

He was sitting at a cafe with his mum, and a couple walks in in general leather, the guy has a spiked collar around his neck with a leash around his neck, and the girl had the other end of it. She led him into there like he was the beast, and she was the beauty. Nobody gave them shocked looks, or second glances, or rude eyes. Here, if someone was caught outside wearing that type of stuff they'd probably be arrested for public harassment, or something stupid like that. I just hate how uptight everybody here is.

There's so many religiously anal retards here it disgusts me. Personally, they say America is land of the free, while we're so busy trying to be politically correct, our freedoms are being taken away. Soldiers fighting and dying for our freedom? People here are too ignorant and stubborn to even appreciate that. We're spoiled, and most countries hate Americans now, it's the cold truth. I admit I was raised well, and I am (was?) spoiled, but I'm not like that as a person. I'm not selfish and I'm nothing like most people here.

*sighs* I've never felt like I belong here, for the entirety of my school term, my childhood.. Everything. Alright, I think that's a good enough update for now, for whoever is looking into me =P