I've been dreaming of Arthur and Merlin, my two cockatiels that have passed on, Merlin this year, Arthur last year. Usually when I dream of them it's a signal that I've forgotten something (I dream of forgetting to feed them or clean their cage). Or that I've got to many things going on in life (when there are multiple of each one and I'm trying to figure out which is the real ones).
But this is different. I am mostly dreaming of finding them and having a "Oh, phew, there you are" feeling, they hang out in the dream for a while, then I move on, sometimes thinking of them in the dream, sometimes not. So I'm wondering if this is my mind trying to process the fact that they are really gone. Possibly some guilt that I am not constantly saying goodbye when I leave to go someplace anymore, or hello when I come home.
It's definitely bittersweet because, of course, I'm glad to be dreaming of them in a positive way, but I do miss them. After 25 years it starts to seem that they will live forever. Birds are especially tricky, since they really hide how bad they are feeling, or that they are slowing down, until the last moment, then BAM, they go downhill quickly.
Anyway, started to do some tasks around the house this morning then found a mold spot on the ceiling of our guest bathroom over the bathtub. Crawled up in the attic and found the spot above it (of course at the farthest area from the hatch). Looks like a small roof leak next to the "chimney".
**sigh**
Have to call in someone probably to look at the roof and see what they can see. Oh home ownership, how fun you are. But hey, can't complain I guess. I do have a home.
Hope you are all having a great Wednesday! Loves and hug.