saturn1

i can't sleep at night and when i do it's nightmares. i tried last night to get 5 hours and apparently seeing spiders before you fall asleep makes you dream about them all night.

so i called in to work today because i hate it and i hadn't slept. i woke up 3 hours later at 10 and was SURE that when i looked that the clock it would only be an hour later. it was threeeeeee hours. that was GOOD

i been hoarding money and i still dont have enough of it or even enough to hold me down for two months if i lost a job or something, but i want to get tattooed because i want to and i might. i also want a digital camera that is worth a shit because i dont have access to a darkroom anymore, so i am gonna see what my roommates new camera is like and if its nice i am going to forsake my desire to be drilled and get a camera instead. i think it would make me feel better to be making stuff again.

if anyone has any tips on how to find a design or production job , especially in the seattle area & for someone just out of school please HELP. i just started applying for everything listed in every paper and job board i can find. it's fuckin time consuming but i am not working retail past november, and if i do it wont be because i haven't been trying. i just wanna be in the field i studied and make more than 20k a year. it's fucking ridiculous how little i make and how hard i work for it.

i like to paint. yeehaw.