saruka

so here's what i have to say.

SUICIDE GIRLS is supposed to be about beautiful, unique women who are individuals and we appreciate their individuality....well, fuck you, sg. cause im too skinny? cause im not sg enough? guess what, you are BULLSHIT. you want women to feel good about themselves without giving in to society's definition of beauty...and guess what? IM SKINNY. IM NOT A...
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when it rains, i dont mind
let me stand here all night
did she take her own life
let me know she's all right

and everytime it rains
i feel her holding me
and everytime it rains
are the angels crying?



sooo...everyone else is too fat, and im TOO SKINNY! so whats a good weight gainer to take? seriously...i ate ALLLL day...and now, i feel...
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im doing a set sunday hopefully and i'm uber excited cause it's erotic. mmm. i can't wait. mmmm i just baked peanut butter cookies. at least im eating! yay.

sooo hungry.oh, and i made rent...kinda. and i have my heinous 260dollar cell phone bill payment too. crazy. i must be one of those people. i can't help it. so many things to do.

i wish i could sleep. i've been staying up til 7 and 8am just cause. fuck sleep. i love it, but im tired of it. and im alone. bored. fucking ernesto. i want to walk. too wet. dont need to get more sick. fock.

i love music. i have heard some of the best music lately...all genres......dankness. wish i could smoke. i kinda quit...so now...
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if i lay here
if i just lay here
would you lie with me?
and just forget the WORLD!

snow patrol makes me want to do a photoset lying naked in the street. *sigh* makes me happy.

oh, and i GOT A JOB FOR REALLL! selling cell phones. whatever, i have a name tag and i am gonna get PAID.

i heart music. i want...
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how the fuck do you get rid of anxiety?!!? i have a knot in my stomach and i wont be happy until its gone. im anticipating something (bad), but i dont know if thats even true. wtf.

i got a job! im the bakery lady now!

*sigh of relief*

and im getting this dope anime mermaid tattoo.

turnaround? lets hope!

now i just gotta work on getting some smoke.

ok, im way too negative.

i love getting picked up from work and being surprised with kasta to hold. *random thought*

i love driving - not crashing. like today. fuckers. im ok. but over 3gs in damage. yea, im THAT good.

i love the garbage disposal. especially now that is fixed!

i love small phone bills. new phone, same number.

i love GOOD new underground...
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i popped my knee out on stage. i got it in pretty quick, but now i can barely walk. i havent gone to the doctor yet, im scared. its swollen. i can not dance. or even wear heels. what the fuck? im still working, just the floor-not stage, worked ok last night. knee wraps are sexy, right?? hehe. anyhow, im pretty happy, in a disabled...
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