Wednesday Oct 27, 2010

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haven't been on much these days. Between work and Dr. appts., life has been hectic.

Hope you are all doing well.

I went to six flags for Fright Fest. It was lame and the lines were ridiculous but I did get to ride Kingda Ka the world's fasted and tallest roller coaster. It was a rush!

countdown to surgery, freaking out a bit. duh!


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Surgery will consist of a unilateral mastectomy (boob removal) with immediate reconstruction. I wll have a tissue expander placed behind my chest muscle that will be filled over time in order to create a "pocket" for an implant. This expansion process takes about 6 months. Then I will have that removed and replaced with an actual implant. Because my boobs are small, I will be going up (because damn I might as well get something fun out of this) and I will get an implant in the other side to match. If all goes well, I won't need radiation. I will be on a hormone therapy that is supposed to decrease chances of recurrance significantly. I will take this for 5 years. I hope this will be the end of cancer for me. It's worrisome because having breast cancer at such a young age puts me at a great risk for it to come back in worse ways. That blows but the reality is, a long life is NEVER guaranteed right? We just pretend it is.



This has been a struggle for me but I will say this, I appreciate life like I never have before. I appreciate each moment and do see beauty all around me. I feel a bit disconnected from most people my age but I feel more connected to other survivors.

i will fight for myself and others till the very end!

smooches.

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fashionista:
Good luck sweetie, you are such a strong person. I envy that. xo
twotoner:
Be strong! I know you can beat this!

I've been writing breast cancer stories for the paper and it's amazing how..well...amazing so many of these women are. It's really inspiring.

(I moved to NoLibs. Spitting distance of Jerry's Bar)

ARRR!!!

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