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since my last post:

I was involved with someone who was a long time old friend. Funny how you don't really know someone until it gets to that level. It was great, till it wasn't. He had some sort of nervous breakdown or something that I don't really get. One day, he's all about me, the next day he thinks I...
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scruffyhightops:
Aww dude, that sucks.

Well, fuck them, you deserve the best!
zenexistence:
I'm sorry about your luck. In truth though I'd look at it as a blessing, you know?
Almost better to learn that early than learn that after some years of effort put into things, though, you know?
No, this probably doesn't' make you feel better -- should I send you a pie in the mail? I goddamn will, you know!
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tomorrow is my last radiation appointment! I am officially done with cancer treatment.

After tomorrow I start the healing process, then in few months I will have my last surgery for reconstruction.

It's been one hell of a 14 month journey. Cancer..fuck you!

family friends loved ones and all you rad people...I <3 you!

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rainbowsprite:
Congratulations. smile
stiles:
Long story short -a friend has been in the hospital going on three weeks now for what should have been a routine surgery. If you go back two blog entries there's more detail. It's been a nightmare.
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I went to let my dog out. guess what, my awning fell off my house! So awesome. I swear nothing bothers me anymore. I burst out laughing as it looks quite ridiculous hanging by one screw.

someone stole my shovel. I walked to get a new one. My neighbors are rad and offered to shovel me out but I'm determined and stubborn. All done...
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scruffyhightops:
Have fun on you movie date!!!!
twotoner:
Easy there! I'll give you snot!

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Distrito was fucking great! Plus a sick wall of lucha libre masks. So much delicious food and top-shelf tequila!
twotoner:
Mmmm....I caved in, was a douche and went to PYT tonight after several drinks at El Camino.

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it's cold , it's cold, it's cold!

I dug myself out and made it to work but as I trudged through the snow/slush I soaked my boots, socks and all.

I spent the rest of the day in socks (after they dried). My boots are still wet. frown

need hot bath.
twotoner:
Argh...I was home all day...granted I was sleeping for a good portion of it. Would have dug you out.

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twotoner:
Sorry, that sounded really dirty.

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I stand corrected...Local 44. whatev.

When I was younger I had a real problem with authority figures. Big shocker right? It rarely comes up anymore. This morning I realized in a sense, I am an authority figure. I'm the manager and a public library that is filled with kids, teens, and adults. I often have to correct behavior. Ask people to leave, tell...
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stiles:
Get any good pics?
twotoner:
Give me a call and we'll go shooting.

Pictures, not gatts.

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I just got off chat with my brother. My brother is actually my step-brother and we lost touch when we were 17 (yes we are the same age). My pops died, the family was a fucking mess, and I never saw him or my other half-siblings ever again.

FB brought us back together and I have to say it's the best thing ever! We...
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scruffyhightops:
Congratulations on graduating you Therapy. It's feels so good when you finally finish sessions, I remember how it felt.

Good luck with the reuniting with you bro, and with the radiation treatment.

Plus, thanks for your comment, I am currently in thoughts about how to approach a certain conversation with Sarah.

You're a star.
x
twotoner:
I think you mean Local 44.

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ok using the word dating is a little extreme. I'm not looking for the love of my life but I do love meeting new people when I can. You never know and I've met some cool folks even if the chemistry wasn't there.

I could also just be a hermit and spend all my free time crafting, watching netflix, and downloading music...
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mmmsgs:
Hey, I'm no rocket scientist (or librarian), but it probably seems like a pleasant change to do things that don't involve the c-word. When all your people have spent time digesting the c-word, I can't help but think it's a nice break to hang with folks who haven't been so involved in it, y'know? Not that it's all about the c-word... I haven't looked, are you or your dog in the Bullies group?
scruffyhightops:
Yeah, I know what you mean, almost all my friends are married, in civil partnerships or long term partners. So, the occasional date would be nice....seems all mine get cancelled at the last minute.

I like your idea, get more cats, in my case, get cats... smile
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oh boy I"m back to online dating. Yes I admit it. Well dating seems a little extreme. I back to making friends online that happen to be men? Does that sound better? Of course I don't really have a ton of time for this but it makes for some fun. I mean all of my friends are married for real.

Radiation starts Monday...
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knives2meatyou:
Funny, you'd think the only person who would accuse you of being selfish with all you're going through would have to be someone so remarkably, overwhelmingly narcissistic that they could only see the world through the prism of THEM. But perhaps I'm being a bit harsh. Or not.

What book was that - was it Portnoy's Complaint? - where the wife goes to the husband's gravesite and says "how could you do this to me?"

zode:
Meeting people virtually can give you a great head start of course its prudent to be cautious.
Stay strong stay positive; I admire your tenacity...
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still haven't seen Black Swan and I so want to. Anyone seen it yet?

making some more jammies and a new dress.

5 Dr. appt.s this week. One today so that leaves 4. It can get pretty old pretty fast. Every new Doc has tons of questions. At this point I just want to say..read my chart please. It's all there...
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knives2meatyou:
Black Swan was really good - it wouldn't surprise me in the least if it won a lot of awards and it WOULD surprise me if Natalie Portman doesn't win a lot of awards. Her performance was remarkable. I think you'd really like it. End of review.

Good luck with the appointments and rads. Have you been in touch with Cheyenne? You two should talk.
twotoner:
So when are we hanging out?

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someone torched their car at 6 this morning. confused the hell out of me. blaring endless horn, smoke, flames, firetrucks, followed by mini explosions. Finally figured it out and went back to sleep.

new year's eve I decided to hang alone. It's been a tough year. I had invites (I'm not a total loser). I had two date offers but I didn...
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duder00:
Like an idiot, I got way too little sleep the night before new years. So, I pulled the staying in alone thing too.... while I missed out on my close friends having stupid fun smile. I realized at like 6:30 pm friday that I was all of the sudden way too exhausted... and thought to myself.. I messed up pretty big.

I'd say something about the gunshots, but the issue with the gun is philly fills me with such disgust, I can't say anything civilized.

Oh yeah. Hi tiff!
mmmsgs:
I can't help but think about an early scene in Bowling for Columbine where a guy tries to take a picture of his dog while the dog has a shotgun slung over its shoulder and the guy dies in a gun accident... It might make your dog laugh about gun fire? Maybe not... smile
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A friend of mine wrote 2010 sucked on her FB. She had some serious losses so I wont take that away from her. I was about to respond "ditto that" but honestly I don't feel that way.

I'm looking forward to what 2011 brings for sure and am pretty psyched that after radiation, every day will get better because my energy will keep...
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zenexistence:
I <3 thee, woman. Your strength and outlook always make me smile. It's a retarded, lopsided, drooling, more-sneer-than-smile smile but still ...
stirfry:
once again you inspire me.