chemo got extended...blah 
it's strange when I was faced with cancer I felt like I had to come to terms with dying. then again I was afraid to come to terms with it too much and have it lead to a self fullfilling prophecy. Don't get me wrong, I want to live but there isn't a guarentee. I'm the sort of woman that wants to face things realistically and head-on. What to do with something like this is a challenge.
How does one plan for a future when it becomes so obvious that a future is NOT inevitable? Do you just "hope" it doesnt' come back? Do you still try to find that special someone to build a life with? Do you still act responsibly and pay your bills? do you move to fantasy island?
Life is confusing sometimes.
for now I ride my bike.
it's strange when I was faced with cancer I felt like I had to come to terms with dying. then again I was afraid to come to terms with it too much and have it lead to a self fullfilling prophecy. Don't get me wrong, I want to live but there isn't a guarentee. I'm the sort of woman that wants to face things realistically and head-on. What to do with something like this is a challenge.
How does one plan for a future when it becomes so obvious that a future is NOT inevitable? Do you just "hope" it doesnt' come back? Do you still try to find that special someone to build a life with? Do you still act responsibly and pay your bills? do you move to fantasy island?
Life is confusing sometimes.
for now I ride my bike.
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Ultimately, you live for yourself and for those you care for. To see and do and love and roll with it, no matter what setbacks may befall you. The cancer can only fuel your indecision if you let it.
Everyone dies, but not everyone really lives.
however, i am a companionship kind of guy, so i would continue to look for someone to share my life with, however long or short it may be.
sorry. that probability wasn't helpful at all...