I'm so sad that I feel like I should go ... I feel like after 4 years all my effort and dedication has been for nothing ... 10 sets in MR +2 sets deleted and another 2 queued.
I feel like I'm never going to become Pink that I'm not enough to be, that I don't deserve it.
I deleted my posts because i felt so bad that I wanted to disappear
After so long I don't know what I have to do to be able to make a set that I really like ... I feel like the problem is my body, being fat ... Once I was published on the official Instagram and most of the comments were attacking me, insulting me and messing with my physique calling me fat and saying that I was sick and even promoting obesity, there were more than 2k comments and most of them were like that. I even received DM with these insults and with major words ... Luckily there were girls, web models who defended me but it hurt so much that I considered leaving after spending several days crying. But in the end I was encouraged to keep trying but 3 years later I feel the same again that I am not enough or I do not have the correct profile.
I tried to participate in the #SGMERCHCONTEST contest that was held these days with a set that I really had fun making and I looked very pretty but it must not have been good enough to even participate. I guess like the rest of my sets, I would like to know If I really have a chance or will it always be a dream? I would like to know what I am doing wrong so that I can improve it and give my best, After the two sets that I have in the queue I feel that I should not send more, but despite all this I want to thank part of the community, the people who have been there, supporting me, guiding me, teaching me and helping me improve and that has made me very happy, Thank you.
Sacmis 🖤
