she phoned this morning.
I wasn't expecting it, and it was good to speak to her (really good) but it still managed to scare me a little. All the things running through my head that I wanted to ask her but that I knew I couldn't if there was any chance of being her friend somewhere at the end of this all.
I wanted to tell her that I still love her. I don't know what stopped me. Something in her voice maybe, or something in my own that made me second-guess myself... there are times where I'm sure that I do; when she texts me from the other side of the world late at night, when I get a letter or an email that makes me smile and think of her, but there's the rest of the day. The other hours of waiting and wondering and worrying.
I know there's no point in worrying; its not gonna make her come back, its not going to make her love me and it's nopt going to make the next six months any easier.
oh well....
what was it that robert lowell said about the light at the end of the tunnel?
I wasn't expecting it, and it was good to speak to her (really good) but it still managed to scare me a little. All the things running through my head that I wanted to ask her but that I knew I couldn't if there was any chance of being her friend somewhere at the end of this all.
I wanted to tell her that I still love her. I don't know what stopped me. Something in her voice maybe, or something in my own that made me second-guess myself... there are times where I'm sure that I do; when she texts me from the other side of the world late at night, when I get a letter or an email that makes me smile and think of her, but there's the rest of the day. The other hours of waiting and wondering and worrying.
I know there's no point in worrying; its not gonna make her come back, its not going to make her love me and it's nopt going to make the next six months any easier.
oh well....
what was it that robert lowell said about the light at the end of the tunnel?
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frankenstein
as i lay dying
the prophet
the norton anthology of british romantic literature
lost in the funhouse
the inferno
the sun also rises
in our time (and most hemingway)
the brothers K
mrs. dalloway
leaves of grass
black holes &time warps: einstein's outrageous legacy
einstein's dreams
memoirs of geisha
a beautiful mind
the great gatsby
little women (no pun)
of mice and men
american pastoral
if on a winter's night a traveler...
and mcelligot's pool by dr. seuss..
and that's not all, but i was just having so much fun...