gaaaaaaaaaah!
its so cold here and the heating's broken. I've realised that the idea of autumn is all very well, but when it goes from lovely, balmy indian-summer september sunniness to f***ing freezing in the space of a week, I'm not so keen. And the thought of the imminent 6 months of winter doesn't exactly gladden the heart.
but on a cheerier note, it does mean I got to go buy myself a lovely new scarf and kick the first few leaves of the season.
can you tell this is a completely blah entry? I wonder if anyone's still reading???
The weirdness of the situation isn't lost on me: the girl-from-far-away (but who returned) has now moved a little further away and it feels so strange. Knowing that she's about, but not quite in the way that I wish she was. That's life I guess, and the trick is probably in getting to be okay with that and ready for what comes next, but it's sure easier said than done. I've never really had to do it like this before and to be honest, I just don't know how...
The will to do it differently isn't the problem (there's someone else that I really really kind of like
, and I'd probably make a very ill-considered pass at them, if I knew what I was supposed to do. I don't) its just the thing of pushing myself into situations which I find difficult or embarrassing, just because they're new.
Steep learning curve and all that.
Where the hell has the past year gone? Anyone?
Enough psychobabble. I'm off to make some noodles and drink some beer, watch bad tv and try not to think too much about anything.
xxxxxxxxxx r
Has anyone else read "politics" by Adam Thirwell? it's the most disarming book I've ever read....
its so cold here and the heating's broken. I've realised that the idea of autumn is all very well, but when it goes from lovely, balmy indian-summer september sunniness to f***ing freezing in the space of a week, I'm not so keen. And the thought of the imminent 6 months of winter doesn't exactly gladden the heart.
but on a cheerier note, it does mean I got to go buy myself a lovely new scarf and kick the first few leaves of the season.
can you tell this is a completely blah entry? I wonder if anyone's still reading???
The weirdness of the situation isn't lost on me: the girl-from-far-away (but who returned) has now moved a little further away and it feels so strange. Knowing that she's about, but not quite in the way that I wish she was. That's life I guess, and the trick is probably in getting to be okay with that and ready for what comes next, but it's sure easier said than done. I've never really had to do it like this before and to be honest, I just don't know how...
The will to do it differently isn't the problem (there's someone else that I really really kind of like
, and I'd probably make a very ill-considered pass at them, if I knew what I was supposed to do. I don't) its just the thing of pushing myself into situations which I find difficult or embarrassing, just because they're new.
Steep learning curve and all that.
Where the hell has the past year gone? Anyone?
Enough psychobabble. I'm off to make some noodles and drink some beer, watch bad tv and try not to think too much about anything.
xxxxxxxxxx r
Has anyone else read "politics" by Adam Thirwell? it's the most disarming book I've ever read....