@bloghomework awhile ago was favorite TV shows and I went on and on about them and "Dexter" this and "Dexter" that. Or something that sang the praises "tonight's the night" and so on...blah fucking blah.... 😠
But now...I'm caught up. Just finished. Well...I finished about 10 minutes ago. (Yes, I know I'm late to the party)
Want to know my reaction?
There was a progression for my pain and grief and what the fuck did I just watch. It went something like this:
1) I stared at my TV. Mouth agape, brow crinkled in disbelief, eyes wide, and the word 'fuck' dancing along my tongue silently. As if it was trapped, or a pale reminder of Deb and her favorite fucking word.
2) I cursed. A lot. I curse a lot in my daily life. It's part of me. But...I'm pretty sure that I combined the word fuck in ways that I didn't even know existed. It was a fucking fuckfest of fuckery.
3) I texted my SG bestie and fellow Dexter lover @soraleia about what I just saw. And I was so caught off guard that I couldn't even type right. (Hello Decter? wtf Roz.)
4) I cursed at my TV. Again. Fuck.
5) I thought I was going to cry. I was prepared to cry. Everything that led up to that final moment of staring darkly at the screen made me think that I was going to cry mournful tears for the fictional characters I had become so attached to... But no...I just shook my head and decided to vent via blog. You're welcome.
So here I am. Now regretting every Dexter related decision that I have made over the past few weeks. (Not really, but let me be fucking dramatic here for a minute.)
Ok, I might be exaggerating a little. Or a lot. I loved the show. I hated the show. I swear it gave me an anxiety attack more than once. Someone get me some Xanax and a bottle of Merlot, I'm done for tonight.
xoxo
Roz
Ps: I am purposefully leaving out details of what made me go full white girl for a moment with the "so odd I can't even", just in case some of you are still living blissfully ignorant of the PAIN that is Dexter.
Ps part deux: Michael C. Hall I will gladly buy you a cup of coffee sometime. Call me.
