around new years consisted of ::
friday :
breaking into uconn abandoned buildings and finding cool shit.
taking pictures.
following local teenagers we didnt know to freak them out.
getting a flat tire at 3:30am in the starbucks parking lot.
saturday / sunday / monday? :
tried to find a place to fix my tire. not successful.
movies.
party at Pan's house. - saw friend from Cali. who left in october. and random...random people i knew, and wished i didnt.
torrington - stopped by Kevins. said hello. went to chris's.. where everyone else was. drunken-ness from everyone else but me. stayed over.
went back to kevins for a huge brunch he was making for everyone.
called out of work because of donut on car, snow, and because i cant be a pizza delivery girl with a donut on my car
watched movies, family guy, played scene it.
now watching season 3 of friends upstairs at Kingofspadesha's appt.
stranded in torrington for pretty much the entire weekend.
no showers. no change of clothes. grose.
==
now.. for the rant...
it seems to me ive been being played for a fool. that the "nice guy" ive been hanging out with, really only wants booty, and not actually to be with me. using his pimp card - on me. i wasnt really aware, until i asked one if his friends if i should give up on him or not.
apperently... i should have a few weeks ago.
so now.. i look like the ass. because i am one.
fool me once, shame on you. fool me twice, shame on me.
i had to watch some drunk chick hit on him horribly, then pull me aside and talk about how much she wants to bang him.. and when they were together.... this girl.. she had no idea that i was after him. and it made me feel like shit. i wasnted to punch her in the face. (of course, this was all before his friend told me what was really up) so i wait till she goes to pass out.. and i try... but he pretty much ignores me completly. and nothing the entire day at the brunch.
im ready to give up completly. i am not a toy and im more hurt than anything... it makes me think twice about myself.. like.. whats so wrong with me, that he doesnt want to be in a relationship with me.. but only wants to sleep with me. i really thought he was a good guy..
maybe im just over-reacting.... i dunno what to believe anymore.
and maybe im not wrong at all.
and i have no idea if that made any sence at all.. because i havent slept since thursday. and its 4:20am on sunday.
i dunno... ill try and sort this shit out, and keep you posted if anyone askes me about it.
=
now.. back to friends.. and hopefully sleep (and for some reason, im not sleepy.. my mind is still racing over what to do about this guy.).. so i can go get my tire fixed.. MAYBE see my friends from cali one last time before he leaves, and then go to work.. where i will hopefully not be chewd out for calling out because if the flat.
==
im really hoping this year will make a turn for the better soon... cause if not... i really dont know what im gunna do.
friday :
breaking into uconn abandoned buildings and finding cool shit.
taking pictures.
following local teenagers we didnt know to freak them out.
getting a flat tire at 3:30am in the starbucks parking lot.
saturday / sunday / monday? :
tried to find a place to fix my tire. not successful.
movies.
party at Pan's house. - saw friend from Cali. who left in october. and random...random people i knew, and wished i didnt.
torrington - stopped by Kevins. said hello. went to chris's.. where everyone else was. drunken-ness from everyone else but me. stayed over.
went back to kevins for a huge brunch he was making for everyone.
called out of work because of donut on car, snow, and because i cant be a pizza delivery girl with a donut on my car
watched movies, family guy, played scene it.
now watching season 3 of friends upstairs at Kingofspadesha's appt.
stranded in torrington for pretty much the entire weekend.
no showers. no change of clothes. grose.
==
now.. for the rant...
it seems to me ive been being played for a fool. that the "nice guy" ive been hanging out with, really only wants booty, and not actually to be with me. using his pimp card - on me. i wasnt really aware, until i asked one if his friends if i should give up on him or not.
apperently... i should have a few weeks ago.
so now.. i look like the ass. because i am one.
fool me once, shame on you. fool me twice, shame on me.
i had to watch some drunk chick hit on him horribly, then pull me aside and talk about how much she wants to bang him.. and when they were together.... this girl.. she had no idea that i was after him. and it made me feel like shit. i wasnted to punch her in the face. (of course, this was all before his friend told me what was really up) so i wait till she goes to pass out.. and i try... but he pretty much ignores me completly. and nothing the entire day at the brunch.
im ready to give up completly. i am not a toy and im more hurt than anything... it makes me think twice about myself.. like.. whats so wrong with me, that he doesnt want to be in a relationship with me.. but only wants to sleep with me. i really thought he was a good guy..
maybe im just over-reacting.... i dunno what to believe anymore.
and maybe im not wrong at all.
and i have no idea if that made any sence at all.. because i havent slept since thursday. and its 4:20am on sunday.
i dunno... ill try and sort this shit out, and keep you posted if anyone askes me about it.
=
now.. back to friends.. and hopefully sleep (and for some reason, im not sleepy.. my mind is still racing over what to do about this guy.).. so i can go get my tire fixed.. MAYBE see my friends from cali one last time before he leaves, and then go to work.. where i will hopefully not be chewd out for calling out because if the flat.
==
im really hoping this year will make a turn for the better soon... cause if not... i really dont know what im gunna do.
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