Just wanted to share what is possibly the best paragraph I've ever seen committed to print:
...Weren't we all crazy in our sleep? What was sleep, after all, but the process by which we dumped our insanity into a dark subconscious pit and came out the other side ready to eat cereal instead of the neighbours children?
It's from Jeff Lindsay's Darkly Dreaming Dexter..the... Read More
ive been planning to check the book out of the library for the last 12 months, and thats saying something since i dont normally read, last stuff i read was dan browns da vinci and angels and demons, see it all comes down to decent tv and movies
its not that your too young its just that your life is half over and your going to die young, and thats probably whats causing the crises, I know how you feel....
So I'm watching the first SG Tour DVD for the first time in ages.
I put it on to have something playing while I did something else and I wasn't intending to pay it much mind. But it had me pretty engrossed within a few seconds.
Strangely though, it also got me feeling nostalgic. Which is something I never thought I'd feel about anything SG.... Read More
Thanks for the vote of confidence in my tweets! I re-read my profile of tweets and was actually quite impressed. Yay me! Lovely that others notice them too.
I've been thinking about inconveniencing you all with a long-winded whine about my indecision regarding singeldom and asking a particularly nice girl out.
But you caught a break. I decided instead to give you a link to some fresh Aussie flesh.
it went quite well considering i hate pics being taken of me, and heads up if you do want to come it will be may next year in penrith (we are planning on having a non ceremony type bbq thingy when we get back from the full on family one so people dont have to go to the crazy expense of travel & accommodation)
I actually checked my account online thinking that work must have skipped my pay..
Then I saw that work had paid me the day after this transaction at an ATM in Springwood. I knew I hadn't gone to Springwood, nor had I withdrawn $550.. plus when the transaction took place, I was at work in the Valley.
Then it sunk in and I realised they'd pretty much taken everything that was left in my account at the time, approximately a day after using a local ATM.
The ATM is attached to a branch, so they'll inform the branch and see if anyone else has been ripped off.
Thanks for the good thoughts from those who commented on my last post.
I feel 200% better today. Partially, I think, because I got a lot off my chest in that post, also partly because I got out and went a few rounds with the world today (it's amazing how much just getting active can improve your frame of mind), and partly because I'm so... Read More
don't forget, uni is finishing this year (I believe?) and also probably a lot of things in your life are wrapping up.
So what else? You've defined yourself as the struggling artist/student/poverty driven edge dweller, and soon your going to have to come to a point where you re-join a lot of society and have to become an "adult" as such.
and in such you are probably terrified of loosing your identity, what is scott without study? It's make or break, you actually have to write this book, or succeed with what you have been aiming for all along. If not, it seems like everything you have done so far is for nothing.
The only thing you can do is realise you have equipped yourself for a multitude of situations, and understand that sometimes embracing what has been your antithesis for a long time may not be as bad as you think.
it is only through change we grow, and what are you afraid of? That you won't be cool, interesting, guarded - what that you'll just turn out to be another person in their mid-30's who hasn't really gotten anywhere and you can't hide behind your guise any more?
Sorry, that's a little straight to the point, but in saying that I believe you are more than ready for the next transition in your life, and if that includes setting higher goals and taking active, forward steps to what you want and understanding and accepting them if that's not going to be where your going, then that's a hell of a lot more positive that a continual deferment of responsibility of self.
Sorry if I'm totally off the mark
If not, forgive me and my red wine and dodgy psychoanalysis.
Speachless, and at 5:55am, I just don't know how to make the words come out. I can't seem to offer much more than a friendly ear should you want to chat, and big-fuck-off-huge hugs when I see you again, which will be soon. Just not as soon as we'd both like. I've a few trips planned to come home over the next few months, I'm counting on a pancake date from you, now you've a very big grown up persons job starting!
Please don't fall or tear yourself apart. Easier said than done, but yeah, I like all of you in the one piece.
I logged into my bank account to see if I'd received my government stimulus payment (which I hadn't) and noticed a transfer for a savings plan that I didn't think was still active. I followed the cash and realised I've been saving $100 a fortnight for the last five months or so without noticing (don't ask me how I didn't notice... Read More
The 'up' is that I got offered a job writing for Red Hat Enterprise Linux yesterday. I start in a month doing a flexible part-time week to work around my classes and I'm on a salary that, based on the hours, is comparable to what I was on when I was working in government. I'm... Read More
. Definately catching up before I go...if and when.
