roland_deschain

Got a new hair cut for the new year... Buzzed it all off... Fresh start. Was a little iffy about it at first, hell I'll say it took about a month to get use to it, but now I dig it.

Due to the dramatical situation I've been in the past month I've decided to abstain from sex for a while... Masturbation included... Yeah, a state of celibacy is what I need. Things got hot and heavy way to fast, so it's time to see how much mind over matter I actually have. I tried this little experiment about 6 years ago and I only made...
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Life sure is full of surprises, too bad they are far between... I don't update much, don't see much sense in it. Wheels never stop rolling, but you sure as hell get caught up in routines. That's what my life has become, reciently it's gotten exciting, but that's just because I can be a son of a bitch. And sometimes you have to take an...
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Been a while since my last update. Had to get my head back on straight, and I feel like I have, for the most part anyway.

Formed a good friendship that spawned due to shared loss between us. That friendship has really been a highlight of the past year, and hope that it grows in this new one. I may (should) soon be getting a...
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Yeah, Just when life starts getting better, God, if there is one, sure does like to beat you the fuck back down.
Fuck him and his crying like a bitch on the cross Son.

Yesterday I had the pleasure of finding my best friend dead lying in the fetal position in his room. He had been missing for a few days, and I knew it...
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I am starting to write a book off of a series of vivid dreams I had been having for the past few months. They were so realistic I would wake up in cold sweats, and it would take me a min to realise that I was in my home. Then I would jump out of bed, hop on the computer and jot down the major...
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Well I finally did it. Got my first Tattoo today. I had wanted one for a long time. One to pay some respects to my family, well my brothers really. When we were children our father had made us wooden swords and shield, and on each of the shields he had put a crest on them for each of us. So I decided that would...
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I'm trying to get better. I don't consider myself a good man by any stretch of the means. I am cynical, weak, bitter, lonely, and too much of a coward to change those things about me. But that doesn't mean that I have lost faith that I -cannot- change them...

On a rare occasion I amaze myself still. I did just the other day. Sometimes...
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Went out last night to catch Mofro because they were playing in downtown Asheville for the 4th. Saw them last year at Belle Chere and they were great. Unfortunatly my brother told me they started at 7:30. Turns out thats when their set ended, so I missed their show. Was a pisser to miss their performance.

But overall, no worries, still got lit up and...
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Absinthe and Cocaine. This could be the beginning of a beautiful friendship... Not exactly proud of where it led this night, But damn, definatly interesting. Look forward to the combination for future endevors.