My doctors have told me I’ll need open heart surgery by the end of this year, by early next year absolute latest. I was born with a minor genetic defect that caused severe fibrillation events as I got older. Of course the decades of rampant drug and alcohol abuse trying to run from the child abuse at the hands of my family and neighbors obviously made it worse.
I have an aneurism about the size of a baseball in my upper aortic branch, and the back pressure from that has destroyed the main aortic valve. Basically I’m sloshing some of the same blood back and forth that should all be pumped up and out of the valve and into my body. I’m down to 36% oxygenated blood efficiency which means the rest of my organs are gradually breaking down. And each day the opportunity for a clot to form in that non-cycled blood is huge.
I have to thank SG and everyone here for helping to keep me feeling young and motivated these last months. And honest. 🙌
I can’t put this off any longer. I’m on the waiting list for donated tissues and OR availability. The hospital I’ve chosen is rated well and I’ve met the thoracic surgical team. They’re professional and caring souls and my future is well placed in their hands.
There’s really no sense in getting down about this. I’ve had an amazing life. This is the one chance to see even more bright clear horizons. ☮️
Smile ~ I was volunteering yesterday when a nice lady brought a big bucket full of sunflowers from her farm to give away with the free bags and boxes of food we were handing out to local homeless people. She said “everyone needs to smile!” I agree 😀