I can't help the way I have become over this last year. With the past 2 relationships I had, how can I not be pescimistic? Every relationship to be honest. If I had one that really worked, I'd still be in it, right? The only 2 girls who ever made me truely happy, and made things feel right (Sarah, and Heather) I could never be with again, for the most part not by my choice, well, one of which anyway.
Why is wanting to be single such a sin? Avoiding heartbreak, and the immanent catastrophy seems like the intelligent move to me.
I have high standards, I'm not sorry for it. When all you see at the "store" are igno.... excuse me, ladies of "sub-par" intelligence, psychos, track record-proven cheaters, and ready-made families (when you know you're not ready for that), why go "shopping"?
I have my friends, I hang out, I talk to people, I just don't develop bonds that could lead to anything more than friendship. I hold people at a distance, and it's all in the name of self-preservation.
I miss having a best friend that I'm close with, bordering on a relationship. But, I don't miss clubbing. Those shameless meat-markets of bare flesh, and desperation. I don't miss awkward first dates, first kisses, first "congregation".
Without those stresses in my life I'm a much happier man, despite appearances.
I'm done being the one working to keep friendships going. That doesn't mean I don't want to hang out, it just means I'd like for someone to drive to see me ever once-in-a-while, who doesn't have an agenda.
What's so wrong with all of that?
Why is wanting to be single such a sin? Avoiding heartbreak, and the immanent catastrophy seems like the intelligent move to me.
I have high standards, I'm not sorry for it. When all you see at the "store" are igno.... excuse me, ladies of "sub-par" intelligence, psychos, track record-proven cheaters, and ready-made families (when you know you're not ready for that), why go "shopping"?
I have my friends, I hang out, I talk to people, I just don't develop bonds that could lead to anything more than friendship. I hold people at a distance, and it's all in the name of self-preservation.
I miss having a best friend that I'm close with, bordering on a relationship. But, I don't miss clubbing. Those shameless meat-markets of bare flesh, and desperation. I don't miss awkward first dates, first kisses, first "congregation".
Without those stresses in my life I'm a much happier man, despite appearances.
I'm done being the one working to keep friendships going. That doesn't mean I don't want to hang out, it just means I'd like for someone to drive to see me ever once-in-a-while, who doesn't have an agenda.
What's so wrong with all of that?