Today really was the first day of the rest of my life.
Ok, first things first, Nick tried to come over and sleep with me last night, but I continually turned him down. Not only that, but I didn't give him any hope at all. No half cheating cuddling or flirting or anything it was just a broken record, "that's not going to happen." I didn't even feel torn about it in the slightest. It's good to know I'm really and finally officially over him. Really good.
To answer my own question from yesterday the last thing that filled me with wonder was the sunrise this morning:
To celebrate my new found freedom I went off and took some photos at dawn. Taken while driving. God, how amazing is that? Too bad I wasn't actually parked somewhere pretty for it. Still I just had this feeling this morning like the world was mine and really, this is the case. Today is the first day of the rest of my life, fo'reals!
Another shot of the sun coming up over the horizon. God, I really want to go see the sun rise with someone. Any takers?
This is my favorite tree in all of Fargo-Moorhead. I took about 30 shots of it and this is the only one I really liked. The area around the tree is so blah. The tree itself is so magnificant to me though. It's stretched out sideways like someone tried to squash it and it just found a way to evolve. I don't know, every time I see the tree I just think "if you want something bad enough, you find a way to get it there." This tree wants to live badly. This shot was a really nice one though.
Then I got home and realized how damn cute I looked and snapped a few photos. I wanted a new profile pic. You know why? Cause I looked Rizaliscious and wanted to change my name to that in honor of the great sia who calls me that all the time.
Here's another one I liked. sia is right, I do have a HUGE ego. I think he's wrong that I deserve to though... Ego = bad!!! but this totally made me laugh:
sia said:
"you know maam, with the rizaliscious package, you are automatically eligible to boost your ego to a never heard of level, with no negative repurcussions. we can get this out to you today, and you can wow all of your friends and family with all the awesomeness of Riz, and have that extra ego, at no extra charge..."
But now to the good part!!!
I had my bi-annual review today (4 and a half months late mind you). For those of you who don't know I'm a Mentor at Swanson Health Products, but this basically means that I have a very limited part in helping train new reps and spend most of my time as an Inbound Sales Representative. I've continually turned down offers for the lead position since I have no interest doing a lot more work for about the same pay/no overtime, cause the position would take away a lot of the things that I LOVE about my job. But there is a job I've had my eye on for some time: the night trainer position.
Well, Denise, the person who'd held the position in the past, is moving to days and after about 15 minutes of Andy (my boss) going on about what an amazing Mentor I was, I started getting courageous and asked him who was taking Denise's spot. And all of a sudden you could see the tension build on him while he went through this elaborate explanation about how they weren't sure, but so and so would be willing to take part and he was going to have to do part and trying to make it sound like they had it all handled, but not very convincingly. So, I told him that if they had any spots left that I'd love to do more with night training. I told him that it'd been my secret dream to be night lead and that I'd REALLY love to help out more, in any way that'd let me.
Andy got really excited and kept asking me if I was serious and I kept telling him that I was and he said that they'd LOVE to have me be a part of the night training program!! I don't know how much I'll be doing yet, but he's going to talk to Rex about it tomorrow to find out more about what they can offer me. And I told him he that he'd better not be pulling my leg, I was really excited about this and he told me that he wouldn't, that I'd be a great asset!!! He did promise me that they'd find me something more to do at the very least. My lead, Heather, is one of the other people looking to do more and I asked her if she minded if I took over some of it and she gave me the BIGGEST hug and said "I've been a wreck, I just got trained into a lead and I'm barely figuring this out, I had no idea how I was going to balance this AND all the training. Take the bulk! It's yours!" So, well see....
The thing is, I REALLY want this job. And I'd be good at it. I mean REALLY good. I'm probably the best mentor we have right now. They always give me the "problem" kids, but all the ones I've had have made it. I'm really patient and full of energy and friendly. And I've been here FOREVER, I REALLY know the job well so I'd be able to talk about things first hand very easily. I don't know if it'll pay much more. It might just be like the mentor program where I get a bonus every X months for having the job title. But at the very least it'd be a new job title and more job variety. I mean I love mentoring, handling French E-mails, chats and doing returns, but this would be an even bigger step and I'd REALLY feel like I was making a bigger contribution at my work place. So everyone send happy thoughts my way. I don't know when I find out how much of the position they'll give me, but I told them that I'd love to take as much as they could offer me. That I'd be willing to head the night program completely.
If I get this job, I won't be online NEARLY so much, but I'll be so much happier. Really. I'm already so proud looking at all the people I've trained in individually, to see that from an even earlier step... I just think I'd be really good at this job. I know I'm rambling at this point. I'm just SO damn excited!!! Like completely freak out excited!!
Ok, enough about me. Let's get a question for the day up:
What's your favorite B movie? Really, what makes a B movie a B movie to you?
♥,
Rizzy
P.S.
If I do get a raise, all of it's going into savings for travel. And I'll be able to make going to the coast a priority!!! Talk about exciting!! (Don't worry, Lee, Australia comes first, but you already knew that). 
