Last night was so wicked awesome I decided to do a full photo post for it. My book assignment for last night was to look at everyone and wonder if they were the one (and act accordingly). I totally did this and realized something. Tara might be right, there might not be anyone for me in Fargo. And if there is, they definately weren't out last night. I did kiss a boy briefly who was a "maybe," but in the end I decided it was not meant to be. I broke the "haven't kissed anyone since August last year" curse with that kiss, but I must admit, I realized that it's probably not worth it. I should totally remain a prude.
Saddest thing about last night: I couldn't get Cody to come out!!! And I miss that fucker SO DAMN MUCH!!! Boo!!!
On to the photos though:
The best place I've gone to an after bar at in a long time. This is right above Dempsey's one of my favorite bars. I took lots of photos cause it was so damn awesome to be above it all. That red sign glowing on the street is an old school pizza place called Sammy's where they still toss their pizzas in the air. Pretty neat stuff for little old Fargo.
King town of lameness!!Walking out to my car. Tell me that doesn't look like prime zombie feasting ground right there!! My apartment parking lot looks like it was made for the opening scene of a zombie movie and when I'm out there at night, I treat it accordingly, always on the look out for someone interested in eating my brains. AWAY YOU ZOMBIES!!!
Look at me!! You can see it in my eyes that it's going to be a very long night for me (and it was!!) I totally lost that shirt last night (it was just over my main outfit for warmth) How sad is that? It's ok cause it was WAY too big for me and as I lose weight it wouldn't get any better. God my hair looked like crap there. I got ready in such a rush cause I waited too late and you can totally tell. The only thing I took time on was choosing my outfit. I'd done laundry and wanted something totally awesome to wear.
See? See how bulky that thing is on me?! I love Lauerman's though. Look at how big that beer is!! I'm all like "BEER!" in this photo. I love how the lights look in the background of this shot. This was the bar that one of the bar lights set on fire at Beat-Down's last show. You can kinda see my actual outfit here. But barely. boo!!
Bigger than my head! This shows the size much better! So much fun. Craig and I did a total pub craw of downtown. We hit the Basement (off the strip, started there), Dempsey's, Lauerman's, Rooter's, the VFW, the Aquarium, and lastly the Empire. Not bad considering we didn't get started till 10:30 pm. One thing I will say for my friends. When I'm too poor to afford to go out, they totally come through for me. Craig bought me tons of shots and drinks. I love that boy. He told me he's going to take me for sushi next time he has enough money for it, too!!! I love Craig.
Sersiously, how can you not love that face? I looked at him and wondered and then went "God, that's too much like incest." Craig told me if he was straight, he'd totally go for me. That made me happy. I'm the only straight person that he's actually told he was straight.. but I'm pretty sure that everyone who meets him knows automatically.
OMG! I TOTALLY FOUND OUT THAT I KNOW MY EXHUSBAND'S CURRENT GIRLFRIEND!!! I ran into her last night and she told me that they've been dating for like 4 months now.... she's already put on about 20 lbs.... I told her that I gained 10 dress sizes when I was with him (in about a 6 month period) and she freaked out a bit. I should have told her that I'm the only girl that made it out without trying to commit suicide or being institutionalized after. The girl he dated before me went from being a straight laced Christan with strong morals, to shaving her head, checking into a state hospital for 6 months, dropping out of school and then after being released becoming a stripper and at age 21 started dating a 90 year old man who she called Daddy. No joke. I talked to her during this stuff... she clung to me desperately just cause it was the closest thing she could have to a connection with Brad. I wanted to help her, but I don't know if I did. 
I wish there was something I could say to this girl to show her what he can do, but I know she's not ready to hear any of it. Best I can do is be there for her through it all........
That little red sign? A pizza place that still tosses their pizza's by hand. This was taken from the after bar I went to. Right above my fave bar in town: Dempsey's. Way cool, I wish I lived down town some days.
See how flat it is in this photo? That's everywhere for about a 100 mile radius. That flat. No Joke. Ask Leethal if you don't believe me. The only "hills" here are man made (i.e. overpasses). I love the reflections of the light off the ground here all the same.
I took about 50 photos like this last night. I was having a hard time getting a good shot while having so much booze in my system.
See that? Dawn! I made it till Dawn drinking!!! (not bad since I only spent $6 all night....) I love the Fargo theater. I wish I lived in an apartment where I could wake up and see it every morning... even if the vew was from my bathroom.
Nick, not the guy I made out. The guy I maybe should have made out. He's fucking awesome.
The morning after. And now, cause I'm still wearing the same top. Well, I layered 3 tanks. You can't see the cross here, but it was totally cute. Wish my skirt would have been dry in time cause that totally would have made the outfit that much better.
And now, cause life is too short to remember the negative in life, a list of the compliments I received last night:
♥After looking at my id, a bouncer was like "OMG THAT'S THE WORST ID PHOTO I'VE EVER SEEN!!! IT MANAGES TO MAKE YOU LOOK UGLY IN IT!!" My id is so old, it was when I was with Brad and I'm a lot heavier in it than I am now. It's nice to see that I've lost enough weight where it's that visible in my face where people are freaking out again about how much better I look now. This guy later stalked me to the after bar and obsessively hit on me for the rest of the night.
♥When talking to my exhusband's new girlfriend, we were talking about fashion. She was talking about how she makes her gay friend go shopping with her for his fashion sense and I started teasing Craig cause he rarely wears anything other than a plain t-shirt and corduroys and how when I lived with him it was me giving the fashion advice. Then I made fun of my own fashion and she said to me "Girl, please. You couldn't have bad fashion if you tried. You always look like the height of style." And then Craig added "No kidding, Every time I see you I have no idea what you're wearing, just that it's awesome." And then this started about a 15 minute convo where I tried to convince them that I wasn't that fashion savvy while they both completely got mad at me trying to convince me that I was the most in touch with fashion out of ANYONE they both knew. I was beyond feeling special. 
♥I ran into Tara again, who said my fave bittersweet compliment. That there's no one in Fargo good enough for me and if I want to find a guy I'm going to have to go to a bigger city. Cause I deserve way more than anything anyone here as to offer. SO sweet!
♥ About 10 or so people complimented my cross necklace. I'm so happy I found it again, it was packed in a box that I unpacked yesterday, made me very happy.
♥ This morning walking back to my car, a pair of guys walking down the street saw me and went "Damn girl! How you doing?" and looked over their shoulder at me and were all crazy calling out about it. Made me smile and laugh, but I just walked on by.
♥ Quite a few people complimented the outfit.
♥ Ran into my tat artist for the first time ever out at the bars. He's married now!!! I'm so happy for him, he's such a cutie. He was talking about how I'm one of his favorite customers and that he can't wait for me to do my next piece. I adore that boy.
♥ Had multible boys hitting on me and competing for my attention last night!! That was definately pimp. This time I think I'm ready for this (last time I lost most of my weight I freaked out at all the guys hitting on me so gained it back to keep them from being interested). Boys that want me? Bring it on!! I am WAY looking forward to this!!!
I think that's about it. Was still very fun and very awesome. For anyone who actually read through all that, wow, you rock!!
Love,
Rizzy
That is a big ass beer.
I like your blues.
And the B-day was pretty cool. Hung with my kids at a friend's place. Our kids played and ran amok (as kids tend to do) while we all chilled, listened to the stereo, drank beer and occassionaly danced like idiots. Oh, and there was a brief discussion of fisting. I don't know why. And more to the point, I don't know why all the women looked to me for the "How the fuck?" explanation... Do I look that deviant?? Hmmmm, maybe I'm missing my niche in life.
Anyway, there was much BBQ and a cake involved so it was all good.