sometimes i catch myself thinking about those times you wake up and everything just makes sense.
today was one of those days, i woke up to sunshine pouring over me and the coffee on the windowsill that i never drank. waiting, cold. there's still hope for it yet with this sun shining upon it and the days growing warmer and little birdies tweeting all around.
and its always so wonderful, because you can't MAKE sense. no one can.
you realize it,
(when smoking cigarettes at sunrise in boston with a homeless, old veteran, watching the seagulls)
you find it,
(stranded all night in utah, sitting alone at a picnic table, watching the waitress in the diner across the street hustle and bustle about in the middle of the night, and the mountains beginning to appear as if by magic as the darkness fades to morning)
you feel it,
(submersed under cold east coast waves in summer or warm blankets and skin when the snow is falling outside)
it makes sense often when sober and alone.
so-ber: adj: unhurried, calm (merriam webster)
oh to be perched upon rocks and grassy knowls and shores and coffee shop chairs of america......
with nothing.
so-bri-e-ty: noun: abstaining from excess
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(for meanings)
lets go somewhere quiet and beautiful.
i believe in a thing i like to call split-second soul mates. you encounter them only for a moment but you just know that you share something beyond words. they get you. their spirit is free as well, and free spirits are hard to come by.
on my way to work i found one! she seemed to dance as she walked from a few blocks away and even her toes must have smiled beneath those run down red sneakers. curls, noir. lips, rouge magnifique. she said hello and so did i and i think i loved her a little, as i do all my little momentary soul mates. and for that moment i didn't feel alone in my ways (and its fine to feel alone but when you find someone to share it with even for just a few seconds, it is glorious, truly glorious).
life is one big dream. when it becomes lucid to you, you can fly, dance on water, anything.
you can do anything at all.
i feel it is important to note that on this date last year i was in a car with the aweome zepp101 on our way to mexicoooooooo city to see radiohead!!!! ohhhh what a trip it was. i went back to last years blog and read my entire journal account of mexico and smiled so much.
god i can't wait for my next great adventure!!
i'm going to philly tomorrow then to virginia the day after and next week to new york city for my birthday! good food. best friends. jazz. smokes. booze. its going to be a jolly good time
i have this new thing at the bakery that i like to call "rexx's" super awesome cookie of the day. allow me:
teehee my customers think i'm a crazy loon and that is why they love me. and i am crazy, you know.
well babies the time is almost out here at the coffee shop, i'm going to go sit in my corner and read vonnegut then stroll home. i miss you. tell me things!
<3 Rexxy
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scarletletterman:
Happy Birthday, Rexx!
alienheep:
Hey!.. You're welcome! So how was New York?