There is a day that does not go by that I do not consider it myself. I tried in my youth, and failed the few times. I had some peace for awhile. When my mother and I were both diagnosed with Huntington's Disease, there has not been a day that goes by that I do not consider it. The only thing that has stopped me, is the fact she and my father are still alive, and I will not go out without taking them with me. All I can say girl, is hang in there. Drop a line if you need to vent.
You've got the right mentality since you're not falling into the trap of getting into a relationship before making sure that you're on stable ground.
The red velvet pancakes look really good and they are making me want pancakes right now. The last diner pancakes I had were chocolate chip and were quite amazing.
We really did run into some random stuff during the semi-pointless wanderings after the show, a lot of it was really interesting though. The pictures from that and the show came out really well considering there wasn't that good of lighting.
fucking exhausted from being out last night at the pretty things peep show with siamkittie, amalgamated, infinity and autumnembers. Shit that was good times. I didn't get home til 3 something in the morning. And just as I was finally falling asleep the thunderstorm rolled in and scared the shit out of me. Had to run around closing windows... the thunder was... Read More
okay i'm done. no more talking about it. tis for the best. tis silly and retarded and girly and i am none of these things. and i'm starting to feel stupid. so that's enough.
bayside was amazing. the show on the other hand was not. fucking all age shows... i did not pay attention. stupid children. annoy me. good lord i hope to never get... Read More
A 14 hour time difference is KILLER. What have I gotten myself into? I can sit here and list all the reasons why this is ridiculously stupid... the biggest being that he will be here for maybe 8 weeks at the end of the year, in which time i will most likely fall head over heels, cus i have no control in matters of the... Read More
Yeah you might be crazy... But who can control matters of the heart... Sometimes it's just a force greater then anyone... He must be a fascinating guy to have so much of your attention.
It sure is a great day out. I hope u maximize your time ;-) cute little pretty toes.
There is so much on my mind and I'm not really sure where to start or what to address first anymore.
I wrote out a bunch of stuff and then decided to delete it. I need a sounding board... I need someone to tell all the crazy things in my head to so I can have another perspective. I don't have therapy for two more... Read More
i am emotional.
i am loving.
i am the best friend you will ever have.
i get attached.
i am a bit crazy.
i am funny.
i have moments where i am beautiful.
i am reliable.
i am fiercely independent.
i am strong-willed.
i am opinionated.
i am honest. brutally honest.
i can hold my own.
i am a guy's girl.
i think like a... Read More
i would appreciate it if someone devoid of all emotion could teach me the trick. I am a royal fuck up. I am going to change my middle name to self destruction.
And enough of the pity party. I was honest. That's all I can be. People read a lot more into what I say than I actually mean. But whatever. Give me 3 days... Read More
One can clearly derive the idea that u are in a lonely place but there are people around u that care and will do anything with in their power to make your life a little easier. You are an incredible person. Inside and very clearly outside ;-)
those fries look amazing! AND being emotionally devoid isnt hard, you just need to fill the desire for emotion with meaningless sex (at least thats how I do it).
poked. prodded. scraped. i hate the gynecologist and i hate having tests done on my stupid lady parts. i hurt so bad after. and then i get sad and depressed. i gave in, i'm going back on hormones. FML. I can't deal with the pain anymore so i am going to stop my period. i win stupid bloody mess... I WIN. please bear with me... Read More
i have an infection that i can't seem to fight. i am on antibiotics but i woke up in serious pain this morning. and then i almost passed out at a store while buying school shit. thank something i see the doctor tomorrow. i'm hurting. a lot. couldn't even go to burlesque today... anger!
happiness is so tenuous. my favorite human incubator called me today. things have been dicey recently and her health has been compromised... as good as the babies were for the tumor in her brain, they began to take away other things from her. the doctors hoped she would make it to week 32 so they could try to deliver while other doctors told her she... Read More
I wish that I cuold help ... 
The red velvet pancakes look really good and they are making me want pancakes right now. The last diner pancakes I had were chocolate chip and were quite amazing.
We really did run into some random stuff during the semi-pointless wanderings after the show, a lot of it was really interesting though. The pictures from that and the show came out really well considering there wasn't that good of lighting.