Its a Sunday afternoon and fuck im bored. Life itself aint going no where, i have a gf and i feel like im doing all the running about going to hers all the time. i have a flatmate whoses ma xgf and shes being a pain and throwing her dummy out most of the time. work tomorrow which will be fun. i think im just thinkin too much about stuff. Even though im chilling here listen to ma playlist of Deftones, Limp Bizkit, Linkin Park, Flyleaf and RATM, i still think im missing something in my life but fuck i dont have a clue on what it is. Was thinkin about spending some more money on my credit card and buying some computer upgrades, but im feeling to down to do it lol.
I just look at things in my life and i know I aint happy about them, but saomethings i have i couldnt live without, so im proberly scared of losing them, but there are other things i can see and think to maself WTF!.
I dont know if im just losing interest in things and i have a deep thought burning into my mind about buying a open plane ticket and just fucking disappearing with out a trace. if only lol. its like what they said in the film trainspotting - Choose Life, Choose a job, Choose a fucking big televison, choose a 3 piece suit and a range of fucking fabrics lol.
I just look atmself and after 26 years on this , i'm thinking to maself what have i got to show for it all?, no kids, no house, young gf whose still learning about life, and xgf whose fucked the last 5 years of ma life up. a good enough job, actually i think i will say i have had something to be proud of and thats being able to listen and see the bands i have wanted too. proberly thats about it.
fuck it rant over me thinks!
I just look at things in my life and i know I aint happy about them, but saomethings i have i couldnt live without, so im proberly scared of losing them, but there are other things i can see and think to maself WTF!.
I dont know if im just losing interest in things and i have a deep thought burning into my mind about buying a open plane ticket and just fucking disappearing with out a trace. if only lol. its like what they said in the film trainspotting - Choose Life, Choose a job, Choose a fucking big televison, choose a 3 piece suit and a range of fucking fabrics lol.
I just look atmself and after 26 years on this , i'm thinking to maself what have i got to show for it all?, no kids, no house, young gf whose still learning about life, and xgf whose fucked the last 5 years of ma life up. a good enough job, actually i think i will say i have had something to be proud of and thats being able to listen and see the bands i have wanted too. proberly thats about it.
fuck it rant over me thinks!