ARGH! I'm going to fix my momma's computer. We got spyware everywhere! I hate it! So...I feel weird today, but don't I always. I feel like I'm taken for granted by lots of people, and I'm not sure how to be taken seriously.
I went to dinner and the movies with someone on I guess what you would call a date last night. The person...
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Forgive Me
Can you forgive me again?
I don't know what I said
But I didn't mean to hurt you
I heard the words come out
I felt that I would die
It hurt so much to hurt you
Then you look at me
You're not shouting anymore
You're silently broken
I'd give anything now
to kill those words for you
Each time I say...
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Can you forgive me again?
I don't know what I said
But I didn't mean to hurt you
I heard the words come out
I felt that I would die
It hurt so much to hurt you
Then you look at me
You're not shouting anymore
You're silently broken
I'd give anything now
to kill those words for you
Each time I say...
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nikonphoto80:
So are those songs by Evanescence.
Im glad you are back I was afraid that you werent going back. I was about ready to buy you a gift account.
Im glad you are back I was afraid that you werent going back. I was about ready to buy you a gift account.
evanx:
Welcome back.
I don't like the way I feel today. I am into my horoscope...I'm very confused about it though.
The one for tomorrow says "You may be leery about becoming too involved with groups of people now, yet the fact is that they can help bring you out of a funk. If you've been angry because others don't seem to care how you feel, understand that...
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The one for tomorrow says "You may be leery about becoming too involved with groups of people now, yet the fact is that they can help bring you out of a funk. If you've been angry because others don't seem to care how you feel, understand that...
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nikonphoto80:
if you feel hurt buy the ones you care about most than i think it is a good idea to talk to them if they care about you as much as you care about them then they will be more than happy to hear you out and more than will to change if it is hurting you.
some times those horoscopes are totally wrong don't feel like it is your fault for the way the way people treat you.
some times those horoscopes are totally wrong don't feel like it is your fault for the way the way people treat you.
Ok so I'm in a weird mood today. There has been alot going on. I'm going through withdrawals from certain things I cannot say because I just have to move on and get over it. I think I'm doing better at that these days. Not to sound selfish, but I know I will...I am focusing on myself and doing what I think is best for...
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nikonphoto80:
you can do anything you set your mind too doing, it just takes allot of work one of my teachers said that any one can become a great artist or a great guitar player or writer all it takes is to sacrifice, some times you have got to give up some things you love for something that you love even more. like me right now im giving up going to the bar which i love to do so i can scan some negatives because art is something i love even more, well i guess im just saying that if you have any great dream don't give up on it, if i can do it with all my learning disabilities and all the hard ships i have went throw than any one can.
i hope you get the job you need a better environment to work in, and better money.
if giving up drinking is what makes you feel better then good for you, but drinking doesn't make me numb it brings out my emotions even more im better at being numb when im sober.
i know there is lots of people out there who love you.
i hope you get the job you need a better environment to work in, and better money.
if giving up drinking is what makes you feel better then good for you, but drinking doesn't make me numb it brings out my emotions even more im better at being numb when im sober.
i know there is lots of people out there who love you.
Why do I feel the way I do today? I have so much going on in my head. I need to let it all out. Well I will let some of it out on thursday when I go back to therapy. I applied for this job that I think would be really good for me, and I hope I get it.
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mariothemonkey:
*hug* see you saturday
nikonphoto80:
Sounds like a very nice job, I hope you make lots of money. I dont think it is going to snow I hope you have a great party.
My back hurts still. I wonder if it's from my new bed. It hurts in the same spot. 
I am feeling very lonely and angry today.
I had a great time yesterday. Everything about it was sweet. I went to boardman with my buddy rach, and we went to the new coldstone(ice cream), and to the mall to go into kirkland's, and then to the...
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I am feeling very lonely and angry today.
I had a great time yesterday. Everything about it was sweet. I went to boardman with my buddy rach, and we went to the new coldstone(ice cream), and to the mall to go into kirkland's, and then to the...
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nikonphoto80:
If I lived closer to you I would go out and do fun stuff with you anytime you wonted.
Iv never had anyone to confide in so I always just did art or wrote it down or most of the time I would just keep it stuffed up in side me. I wish I had some one to confide in to even if it was just some one on the Internet but I dont know if I could I would always feel bad that I was making them fell bad.
Im a really good listener if you wont to send me an email and tell me what is bothering you. I had one of my sg friends send me an email today and told me all this personal stuff and she told me that she didnt wont to post this stuff for every one to read but she trusted me because I have been a good listener, that made me feel so good it makes me feel like im making true new friends on sg.
Iv been in the numb place before I didnt cry for more then 3 years it might have even been longer then 4 im not for sure, un tell this summer when I cried all day one day and when I say all day I mean all day and I cried some for the next four days two. So I was just trying to say that I dont think you will ever be as numb as I was and finale I broke down so no mater how numb you get something will happen and all the emotion will come back to you.
Well im sorry for putting such a long comment in your journal but it kind of just poured out of me. I hope you have a great day.
Iv never had anyone to confide in so I always just did art or wrote it down or most of the time I would just keep it stuffed up in side me. I wish I had some one to confide in to even if it was just some one on the Internet but I dont know if I could I would always feel bad that I was making them fell bad.
Im a really good listener if you wont to send me an email and tell me what is bothering you. I had one of my sg friends send me an email today and told me all this personal stuff and she told me that she didnt wont to post this stuff for every one to read but she trusted me because I have been a good listener, that made me feel so good it makes me feel like im making true new friends on sg.
Iv been in the numb place before I didnt cry for more then 3 years it might have even been longer then 4 im not for sure, un tell this summer when I cried all day one day and when I say all day I mean all day and I cried some for the next four days two. So I was just trying to say that I dont think you will ever be as numb as I was and finale I broke down so no mater how numb you get something will happen and all the emotion will come back to you.
Well im sorry for putting such a long comment in your journal but it kind of just poured out of me. I hope you have a great day.
Well I had a wee bit of a day from hell at work today. I had to do almost 10 pages of markdowns, and put out a ton of art that came in shipment today. Good thing I have my super human strength. haha!
My back is killing me! It hurts so bad. I can't wait to go home and sleep and hopefully I will...
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My back is killing me! It hurts so bad. I can't wait to go home and sleep and hopefully I will...
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nikonphoto80:
Sorry about work.
Do you need a back rube?
You could go watch robots or you could go drink green beer ether would be nice.
I left you another comment in your last journal it wasnt important just wonted to let you know
Do you need a back rube?
You could go watch robots or you could go drink green beer ether would be nice.
I left you another comment in your last journal it wasnt important just wonted to let you know
mistressmissy:
evan and i are going to see them on saturday. no jobs yet but im still trying. moving so sucks. be glad that you didn't have to turn everything upside down when you did.
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lifeimagenary:
it's been a while hope your doing well? I hope your doing something fun right now. well talk at ya later.
nikonphoto80:
Every thing is going good, I dont know if I got that thro in my journal or not, it was nice to hear from you out of the blue, I hope you have a great night.
Well I slept great last night, and when I woke up today I didn't even want to get out of bed, and I had to force myself.
My boss has a bunch of interviews to do today, and me and her are the only people who work, and we might get shipment. yeah!
My boss has a bunch of interviews to do today, and me and her are the only people who work, and we might get shipment. yeah!
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mariothemonkey:
Yah, sounds like a lot of fun. Hope to talk to you later
mistressmissy:
i hope you get in some decent employees. anyone interviewing to replace loraine's sorry ass? heh
I feel really angry, and sad, and upset today. We had another girl walk out at work. We're down to three employees including the manager to run a store.
I feel like I could go home right now and pace back and forth throughout the house all night. I know I'm not going to be able to sleep.
What doesn't kill you can only make...
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I feel like I could go home right now and pace back and forth throughout the house all night. I know I'm not going to be able to sleep.
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mariothemonkey:
Hey, I'm sure someone can make you feel better
lifeimagenary:
I'm that your feeling down but like you said what doesn't kill you will make you stronger, by the way were do you work that you would only be havein 3 or 4 ppl running the place?
If you ever leave were you are now(working) stayin with only 3 to 4 ppl running a biz would show how comittied someone is to their job what ever it may be. sorry for any spell mis happ i'm a little drunk>
that your feeling down but like you said what doesn't kill you will make you stronger, by the way were do you work that you would only be havein 3 or 4 ppl running the place?
If you ever leave were you are now(working) stayin with only 3 to 4 ppl running a biz would show how comittied someone is to their job what ever it may be. sorry for any spell mis happ i'm a little drunk>
Yeah Spywear sucks that shit is a pain in the ass and dam who ever came up with that idea.