resa

This weekend was crazy! Well saturday night was. I am not in a good mood today. I am not having a good time. I am constantly wishing I was somewhere else...I always have that feeling(well there is probably a few times I didn't feel that way) but I don't recall them now. I always feel that way lately. Like nomatter what I do, nothing can...
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I had well I almost hate to say it because I don't want to jynx it or nothing. I had a really good time last night. I went out and played pool with jason. We hung out until 3am and I had to work at 10am today.

I am trying really hard not to get my hopes up and stay grounded because I really like...
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Everything you think you know baby
Is wrong
And everything you think you had baby
Is gone

Certain things turn ugly when you think too hard
And nagging little thoughts change into things you can't turn off
Everything you think you know baby
Is wrong

It's all over but the crying
Fade to black I'm sick of trying
Took too much and now I'm done...
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Daylight fades, my love
Static hums but you can't hear it where you are
You're disconnected
This is my only song
I'll sing it soft to you tonight and hope you hear
Hear me and answer

If I give, will you receive?
Will you be true if I believe?
You're far away but you are never out of reach

Be real, my love
Be here...
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I'm pretty, what do I deserve
I feel pretty, until I walk out the door
I wonder when pretty's gonna bleed
My monster has all the time he needs
So I came home to feel ugly again
Feels better alone, pretty ugly again
If you come back around I may not let you in
Cause I don't understand what this pretty is.
You're so pretty,...
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Oh my god! I just took a lil test thing on the internet under zodiac's to see who I would be most compatible with and it was like 50 questions long. When I was all done, I clicked on the final button and it said I am most compatible with cancers because of my personality. It figures! That is very weird to me.

Do you know what drives me crazy? People who you think care about you, and who you think you care about just disappearing. It is really hard! I should know all about it because for the first time ever in my life I did it to not one but three people, and now it is being done to me. What goes around certainly comes around....
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Think of Me

Think of me
think of me fondly, when
we've said goodbye
remember me
once in a while, please
promise me you'll try

When you find,
that once again you long
to take your heart back,
and be free
if you ever find a moment,
spare a thought for me

We never said
our love was evergreen
or as unchanging as the sea......
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I've been sleeping pretty much all day. My stomache is killing me today. There were times last night when I could barely walk because I had wicked cramps down toward my tail bone? Its bothering me again today too. I have a massive headache. I'm going to go take more medicine and lay down.

I still feel like I am dreaming. I'm living in a...
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I feel like a great big loser. My friends are dropping like flies. I feel like I am dreaming, and all that is happening can't be happening.