resa

Why don't I just go with my instinct and quit being so naieve? I hate being taken advantage of. I hate it when I think I can trust people and open my heart up to them, and then they let me down. I hate it when I love people and care about them immensly and they do no reciprocate. I hate it when they make me think they truely care, then they go away abandoning me, causing me to wonder if anything they ever told me was true. I hate it when I love something and set it free and it never comes back to me. I hate losing people i love. If they really loved me why do they go away? Why am I miserable in my thoughts of feeling and wondering if I am the only one with regrets about things. Those people I am speaking of that I love are no longer here so how do I take anything at face value ever again? Or learn to pick up the pieces and love someone else beyond that? I hate it when people try to act like they give a damn, or like they have any idea of what I am going through. I especially hate it when they act like they give a damn and then stab me in the back. I work with a couple girls who are like that. They are crazy bitches, who use people for whatever they want and then move on. I wish I could let go of the things I feel I have lost. Does a broken heart ever mend? If there such a thing a true love? If love is true isn't it forever? Isn't it something that is shared between two people not one sided? Is love real, or is it just a feeling of ephoria that you get when you really enjoy having sex with someone? If that isn't the case then why do people give up so easily on love? Undying true love will be forever. I feel so naieve, and completely alone in the world. I am ready to jump out of my skin.