resa

I had well I almost hate to say it because I don't want to jynx it or nothing. I had a really good time last night. I went out and played pool with jason. We hung out until 3am and I had to work at 10am today.

I am trying really hard not to get my hopes up and stay grounded because I really like him. The fact that I do scares me. I don't want to come on too strong because I don't want to scare him. It's a very touchy situation.

I talked to rachel for the last time the other night. We were online because of course she cannot meet me and talk to my face about things. I asked her how I am a bad influence, and she told me it's because knowing me has put a strain her relationship. And she never fought with brandon or jim until I came into her life. I never fought with my ex until I met her. She was a negative influence on me too. There were good things don't get me wrong but when one thing outweighs the other it is just time to let go. I think she is a hypocryte. I think she used me, and so did brandon and neither one of them ever REALLY truely cared about me. If anyone really cares about you then they will at least have to compassion to tell you that they do not want to be in your life anymore to your face right? Rather than being a coward about things? Well folks I nolonger want a goodbye. I am better off without either one of you in my life, and I will be just fine.

Everytime one door closes in life, another one opens.