Ok so I'm in a weird mood today. There has been alot going on. I'm going through withdrawals from certain things I cannot say because I just have to move on and get over it. I think I'm doing better at that these days. Not to sound selfish, but I know I will...I am focusing on myself and doing what I think is best for me.
I have a job interview to work at a new spa that is opening up in howland. It's fulltime, and I think it would be really good for me because I could make more money, and support myself better. It's time to grow up. It took many smacks in the face for me to realize this. There are people in my life who have influenced me, but inevitably I am the controller of my own destiny. I quit drinking! Blech! It makes me feel like shit when I do, and all it did was help me to suppress my feelings on things, and not feel anything. I'm ready to feel for all it is worth. I want to feel every emotion I have within myself again. I'm tired of being numb! I don't want to end up like my father who gave his live to alcoholism. I need to be more positive, and be more happy with myself so I can be happy with other people too.
I went back to therapy this week, and I read this book that has just given me a new outlook on things and life in general. The interview I'm going on is for a front desk position, but eventually I could go to school to be a nail tech, or hair stylist, or masuse, and make a pretty decent amount of money. Things are really starting to look up for me. I'm really excited about it.
I still have a few things that bum me out to think about but I have to let go of others, and know that I am the only one who can control my own happiness. There are people I really care about though, and I am going to keep in touch with them in the process. I need support for things...all of the support I can get from people who love me. I know there are a few of them out there.
I myself have alot of love to give too! I'm just rambling. Happy Easter everyone! I'm a dork for saying that...I get to go color eggs with my nephew now.
I have a job interview to work at a new spa that is opening up in howland. It's fulltime, and I think it would be really good for me because I could make more money, and support myself better. It's time to grow up. It took many smacks in the face for me to realize this. There are people in my life who have influenced me, but inevitably I am the controller of my own destiny. I quit drinking! Blech! It makes me feel like shit when I do, and all it did was help me to suppress my feelings on things, and not feel anything. I'm ready to feel for all it is worth. I want to feel every emotion I have within myself again. I'm tired of being numb! I don't want to end up like my father who gave his live to alcoholism. I need to be more positive, and be more happy with myself so I can be happy with other people too.
I went back to therapy this week, and I read this book that has just given me a new outlook on things and life in general. The interview I'm going on is for a front desk position, but eventually I could go to school to be a nail tech, or hair stylist, or masuse, and make a pretty decent amount of money. Things are really starting to look up for me. I'm really excited about it.
I still have a few things that bum me out to think about but I have to let go of others, and know that I am the only one who can control my own happiness. There are people I really care about though, and I am going to keep in touch with them in the process. I need support for things...all of the support I can get from people who love me. I know there are a few of them out there.
I myself have alot of love to give too! I'm just rambling. Happy Easter everyone! I'm a dork for saying that...I get to go color eggs with my nephew now.
i hope you get the job you need a better environment to work in, and better money.
if giving up drinking is what makes you feel better then good for you, but drinking doesn't make me numb it brings out my emotions even more im better at being numb when im sober.
i know there is lots of people out there who love you.