bob and i rented 'chasing amy'.. i've never seen it.
we sat down and started watching. everything was cool until ben affleck's little speech to joey lauren adams. i immediately started tearing up. the whole fuckin.. stupid.. girly.. "why doesn't anyone love me like that?! complex. so she freaks out, and i'm starting to calm down a little.. and then she's gotta run her sexy...
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we sat down and started watching. everything was cool until ben affleck's little speech to joey lauren adams. i immediately started tearing up. the whole fuckin.. stupid.. girly.. "why doesn't anyone love me like that?! complex. so she freaks out, and i'm starting to calm down a little.. and then she's gotta run her sexy...
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so i, uh.. got dumped today. heh. it was strangely relieving, since i'd sort of been anticipating it for the last few days. it still sucked though. i've only ever been dumped ONCE. when i was like fourteen or fifteen. his name was guy, and he was my very first "serious" boyfriend. which means he was the first dude i dated AND liked. he dumped...
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jonnytrrrash7:
"......the horror............"
tadzi:
well im sorry, but you seem to be doing well...still it hurts.
edit: so i guess i'm going home tonight. i don't want to. i don't want to be here. i don't want to be anywhere. bob's watching 'revenge of the sith'. a shitty, shitty copy. i don't know what to do. i'm dying of boredom/depression right now. i wish to god there was some way to distract myself, but there's nothing to do in this shithole...
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poisonboy:
So, wait, I feel like I'm missing something here...
...is Bob a boyfriend, husband, father, stepfather?
Many people have been to hell and back. Why don't we feel exceptional? Well, I guess it's because most people steep themselves in a kind of existential hell and don't realize it. And those of us with feelers more sensitive than most, well, we get hurt a lot because we haven't grown a film of teflon over us like most of the world has... hence why we get hurt and they proceed as if nothing is bothering them.
It's like running over a speed bump in an SUV.
I don't feel exceptional when I think of how much, and why, I've suffered in the past. I just keep that hurt in mind, like keeping a Thesaurus on the shelf, so I can reference it next time I need to.
"What? My girlfriend just cheated on me... with six other dudes... at the same time... and the video's on eBay?... Well, this is pennies compared to when my best friend passed away."
It's crude, but this is just a few words I thought might help.
But why this feeling of lonliness?
Is there a cause?
OK, that was a stupid question- I mean a cause you can identify, or admit to?
Well, hit me back with some more details on this and I'll help in any way I can...
...is Bob a boyfriend, husband, father, stepfather?
Many people have been to hell and back. Why don't we feel exceptional? Well, I guess it's because most people steep themselves in a kind of existential hell and don't realize it. And those of us with feelers more sensitive than most, well, we get hurt a lot because we haven't grown a film of teflon over us like most of the world has... hence why we get hurt and they proceed as if nothing is bothering them.
It's like running over a speed bump in an SUV.
I don't feel exceptional when I think of how much, and why, I've suffered in the past. I just keep that hurt in mind, like keeping a Thesaurus on the shelf, so I can reference it next time I need to.
"What? My girlfriend just cheated on me... with six other dudes... at the same time... and the video's on eBay?... Well, this is pennies compared to when my best friend passed away."
It's crude, but this is just a few words I thought might help.
But why this feeling of lonliness?
Is there a cause?
OK, that was a stupid question- I mean a cause you can identify, or admit to?
Well, hit me back with some more details on this and I'll help in any way I can...
zeroxnine:
im watching the grass grow 
won't you join me?
won't you join me?
AAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRGHHHHH!!!
stupidstupid.. stupid.
stupid.
i will not read old friends' blogs.
i will not read old friends' blogs.
i will not read old friends' blogs.
i'ma choke a bitch.
stupidstupid.. stupid.
stupid.
i will not read old friends' blogs.
i will not read old friends' blogs.
i will not read old friends' blogs.
i'ma choke a bitch.
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yuriel:
*hugs*
sorry to hear you made that mistake
you do have friends now though right.
that arent just fairweather?
if so good. you've less than zero need to worry about what the ignorant say.
sorry to hear you made that mistake
you do have friends now though right.
that arent just fairweather?
if so good. you've less than zero need to worry about what the ignorant say.
highresolution:
i wish my friends had blogs.
that they didn't know i knew about.
oi.
but pfft. bad girl.
but we just can't help ourselves.
that they didn't know i knew about.
oi.
but pfft. bad girl.
but we just can't help ourselves.
short update. like.. ultra-short.
i got my hedwig tattoos.
make fun of me all you want. i'm thrilled.
went to the quad (on-campus courtyard.. thing.. with a lot of grass and people in sandels) and watched everything you ever wanted to know about sex (but were afraid to ask) on my friend brian's laptop. for the second time. that's right. because gene wilder makes...
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i got my hedwig tattoos.
make fun of me all you want. i'm thrilled.
went to the quad (on-campus courtyard.. thing.. with a lot of grass and people in sandels) and watched everything you ever wanted to know about sex (but were afraid to ask) on my friend brian's laptop. for the second time. that's right. because gene wilder makes...
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poisonboy:
Gene Wilder is the shit...
A hedwig tatteeew??
like... the angry inch and all that!
I got a Kafka tattoo!
Man, people R stoopid if they don't like DOWN!
cuz Phil Anselmo used to be pretty chedder!
Before he became a Charle Manson-looking, sociopath, shit-talking, close-minded asshole!
I love DOWN and of course PANTERA will live forever in my all-time hall of fame, but Superjoint does NOTHING for me and I was sad when Phil turned into a super-racist, confederate flag waving fuck who trashed Dimebag (RIP) and Vinne in public...
Whateva!
A hedwig tatteeew??
like... the angry inch and all that!
I got a Kafka tattoo!
Man, people R stoopid if they don't like DOWN!
cuz Phil Anselmo used to be pretty chedder!
Before he became a Charle Manson-looking, sociopath, shit-talking, close-minded asshole!
I love DOWN and of course PANTERA will live forever in my all-time hall of fame, but Superjoint does NOTHING for me and I was sad when Phil turned into a super-racist, confederate flag waving fuck who trashed Dimebag (RIP) and Vinne in public...
Whateva!
zeroxnine:
people in sandals scare me 
so you're driving. the windows are down. you're happy. no responsibilities.. no one you need to call.
where are you driving?
is it day time or night time?
what's the weather like? season?
are there people with you? if so, who?
and most importantly..
what song is playing?
i'd have to go with.. all along lake michigan in the daytime, early summer, no one but...
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where are you driving?
is it day time or night time?
what's the weather like? season?
are there people with you? if so, who?
and most importantly..
what song is playing?
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chocolatejesus:
I'm driving out west, somewhere between Vegas and San Fran. It's a summer afternoon, warm but not hot, and I'm all alone.
The song is "Hold On" by Tom Waits.
The song is "Hold On" by Tom Waits.
poisonboy:
I'm driving alone, in summetime, in my car (the Spice Rocket) and the song I'm playing is Down's "Lifer."
Sound good???
Sound good???
the quote in italics (see pot-induced post below) is from an ex-boyfriend of mine. i meant to say that when i was updating before but uh.. i died of cancer. or something. i'm sad. and i feel sick.
i watched half of closer last night. i can identify with that situation so well it scares me. i had to stop it halfway through and crawl...
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i watched half of closer last night. i can identify with that situation so well it scares me. i had to stop it halfway through and crawl...
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jonnytrrrash7:
i blew my head wide open last night and pieces of my brain are dripping off the walls.........it's good to have your mind erased sometimes.......
chocolatejesus:
Rare good moods are great. It's just too bad they're so... rare.
Sounds like Hellix is a good friend. I've always wondered what it'd be like to have one of those...
Sounds like Hellix is a good friend. I've always wondered what it'd be like to have one of those...
chicks that play bass have attitude. chicks that play guitar have poetry they can't make you sit down and listen to otherwise.
i.. do.. stuff. i don't know. i love soundgarden. i don't care. chris cornell's vocals make my bones shake. fuckin kim thayil. has anyone heard pigeonhead? he's fantastic. i sort of think matt cameron is being wasted in pearl jam. don't get me...
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i.. do.. stuff. i don't know. i love soundgarden. i don't care. chris cornell's vocals make my bones shake. fuckin kim thayil. has anyone heard pigeonhead? he's fantastic. i sort of think matt cameron is being wasted in pearl jam. don't get me...
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yuriel:
High is yummy.
So is soundgarden. So are pretty girls that are musically inclined <3
He pied for my sins haha. Classic
So is soundgarden. So are pretty girls that are musically inclined <3
He pied for my sins haha. Classic
chocolatejesus:
Soundgarden rocks. When they were big, though, I always preferred Alice in Chains. I don't know why.
ICP, in fact, sucks ass. Although at one time, I owned a CD of theirs. And I'm kind of ashamed to admit it.
Man, I need to get high. Real real bad.
ICP, in fact, sucks ass. Although at one time, I owned a CD of theirs. And I'm kind of ashamed to admit it.
Man, I need to get high. Real real bad.
okay. so i've seen star wars 1, 4, 5, and 6.
i've yet to see 2 and 3. i'm siding with randall though. 6 is definitely my favorite. maybe it's carrie fisher in the slave get-up, or maybe i just love the way they managed to put twenty-thousand hours worth of story into.. i don't know, what was it? an hour and a half? two,...
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i've yet to see 2 and 3. i'm siding with randall though. 6 is definitely my favorite. maybe it's carrie fisher in the slave get-up, or maybe i just love the way they managed to put twenty-thousand hours worth of story into.. i don't know, what was it? an hour and a half? two,...
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yuriel:
ive seen them all
god lucas why.....
it was good..... but could and should have been SO much more
at least it isnt I and II
urgh can i forget those exist now.
well cept qui gonn he's cool.
natalie portman is a goddess.
yum in those revealing outfits awesome.
god lucas why.....
it was good..... but could and should have been SO much more
at least it isnt I and II
urgh can i forget those exist now.
well cept qui gonn he's cool.
natalie portman is a goddess.
yum in those revealing outfits awesome.
zeroxnine:
who needs light bulbs changed anyway?
[Edited on May 22, 2005 6:05AM]
who needs light bulbs changed anyway?
[Edited on May 22, 2005 6:05AM]
moi: wow, you uh.. have no ass. at all.
bob4: you just don't understand true beauty.
bob4: you just don't understand true beauty.
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chocolatejesus:
Wait... what?
arete:
i made a movie once called "disposable ass". it was about a guy with a flat ass. the guy wanted to get ass implants, and his friend told him to just get insertable foam pads, to which he replied "what, are you talking about some sort of fucking disposable ass?"
thanks for the comment on my set
thanks for the comment on my set
that movie sucked
but
why CAN'T i be loved like that
oh well.
ive taken all sorts of tests like those.....
no luck :x
mmm chocolate cake!!!!
hehe i figured you did. just checking though. was wondering why you highlighted that