Today I stopped suddenly and said: "I love you." But then frowned and shook my head and looked at you hopelessly. "No," I whispered, "that is not what I wished to say."
I was silent, then I spoke slowly, and my words were halting, like the words of a child learning to speak for the first time:
"I am one...alone...and only...and I love you who...
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I was silent, then I spoke slowly, and my words were halting, like the words of a child learning to speak for the first time:
"I am one...alone...and only...and I love you who...
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I love the way you smell. Clean like the sea and the wind that blows down from the hills. I want to inhale you fully and travel over your body with my nose. You are sweet like the sea spray and the jasmine that grows in gardens far from here. I like to bury my face in your soft belly. Taking you in. Enveloping my...
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sweet_evil:
mmmmm beautiful words...
As of right now, I cannot take anymore step to get closer to any of my goals because I cannot start applying to school until September...so all of my shit is in order, I just need the application enrollment open.
I am restless. And looking. Constantly searching for something and I don't know where I'm going to find it...sometimes I wonder if I will find it in school or my job, sometimes I wonder if I will find it in family....I feel so ready to start a family soon. But then, what am I doing? What do I want out of life before I have children? What do I need to start for them so that they will be pround of their parents and have a good life? Oh god, sometime I wonder if its just better to "oops" it all!
Then I think I want to travel and make a difference and the cycle starts again....
But I"m in a good place. I know that I want to go do many things, and thats important, now its just sorting them all out and figuring out how to make them all happen.
Hm. Thanks for listening. Thanks for caring. You have no idea how much it means to me that someone listens every once and a while.
As of right now, I cannot take anymore step to get closer to any of my goals because I cannot start applying to school until September...so all of my shit is in order, I just need the application enrollment open.
I am restless. And looking. Constantly searching for something and I don't know where I'm going to find it...sometimes I wonder if I will find it in school or my job, sometimes I wonder if I will find it in family....I feel so ready to start a family soon. But then, what am I doing? What do I want out of life before I have children? What do I need to start for them so that they will be pround of their parents and have a good life? Oh god, sometime I wonder if its just better to "oops" it all!
Then I think I want to travel and make a difference and the cycle starts again....
But I"m in a good place. I know that I want to go do many things, and thats important, now its just sorting them all out and figuring out how to make them all happen.
Hm. Thanks for listening. Thanks for caring. You have no idea how much it means to me that someone listens every once and a while.
deadly_photo:
Beautiful writing - but more paragraphs, please!
I'm back in Dublin now....
I'm back in Dublin now....
As promised:
On this Tuesday away from you
I wonder if the time will ever pass
till we're together
even for a while again.
But yesterday you touched me
and we ate breakfast naked
and curled up in one another.
Sorry no one could see
how beautifully happy we were.
On this Tuesday away from you
I wonder if the time will ever pass
till we're together
even for a while again.
But yesterday you touched me
and we ate breakfast naked
and curled up in one another.
Sorry no one could see
how beautifully happy we were.
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antipode3141592:
i like the way you capture that moment. it'd be nice to feel that with somebody again : \
optimism:
Vegas? Sadly, I am stuck in Edmonton. Going to my normal hang out. Drinking much cider with as many people as I can get to feel sorry enough for me, to come out.
Ah. I re-read what I wrote. I drove a friend to the airport. Sigh.
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Ah. I re-read what I wrote. I drove a friend to the airport. Sigh.
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Hello all....I'm not neglecting you, I promise! Been working alot, had to move a bit north in the state to do so as well. So been very busy. Oh, and my internet (even though it is supposed to be broadband) is super shakey. Bunch of royal bull shit, really, but I won't vent. I know I don't really write much like this, and I appologize...
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euphoric_hell:
Whats wrong with having an entry like this?
oldskoolpat:
sorry to hear that your internet is giving you problems.
Help me sleep
put your hands on me
let me feel you breathe
whisper in my ear
all the things I want to hear
pull me in to you
shut off my thoughts
'till all the weight is gone
and I am lost
enveloped by the warmth
and the smell
of your skin.
put your hands on me
let me feel you breathe
whisper in my ear
all the things I want to hear
pull me in to you
shut off my thoughts
'till all the weight is gone
and I am lost
enveloped by the warmth
and the smell
of your skin.
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euphoric_hell:
You disappeared. Hope things are ok 
Oh how you smile at me
Your lurking pain is all I see
Open up and laugh at me
Before you hide now
Crimson flowers are still in bloom
But always closing up too soon
Bitter sun and pleasure pills
Pale and die now
And in the gruesome fallout
Of everything that went wrong
I know Ill never figure out
Where loneliness and hate belong...
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Your lurking pain is all I see
Open up and laugh at me
Before you hide now
Crimson flowers are still in bloom
But always closing up too soon
Bitter sun and pleasure pills
Pale and die now
And in the gruesome fallout
Of everything that went wrong
I know Ill never figure out
Where loneliness and hate belong...
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euphoric_hell:
The whole drinking thing is a long story. I dont have an issue with people drinking at all. As long as they dont take it too far. As in they lose control, get angry, or start fights. That stuff isnt cool and sucks to deal with. However i will write about the little alcohol experience I had a few years back in one of my journal entries
-Dante
-Dante
optimism:
I'm home. If you're around, do you want to chat? Doesn't look like it. I'm sleepy. I'll catch up with you soon. Night.
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When you step away
For a moment alone
In another room
Your warmth lingers
On my fingers and palms
On my mouth.
No matter how quick
Your return
An eternity passes
While at my core
A lava flow pulses
Seeking release.
I marvel at need
Still so great
We've done this
A thousand times
At least.
When you return
With quick steps
I'm at the...
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For a moment alone
In another room
Your warmth lingers
On my fingers and palms
On my mouth.
No matter how quick
Your return
An eternity passes
While at my core
A lava flow pulses
Seeking release.
I marvel at need
Still so great
We've done this
A thousand times
At least.
When you return
With quick steps
I'm at the...
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pica_pica:
holy shit, I totally know that.
know it, and I wish I was somehow able to know it right now. Alas.
is that something coming from your life now? Like at this moment?
know it, and I wish I was somehow able to know it right now. Alas.
is that something coming from your life now? Like at this moment?
oldskoolpat:
i love your new profile pic! 
your feet and toes are amazing.. *drools*
i just now saw the set you posted in the fetish photog group. wowza!
your feet and toes are amazing.. *drools*
i just now saw the set you posted in the fetish photog group. wowza!
I give you my tongue,
and the word it has for you,
and the desire it has for you
as I speak silently to your body,
as I speak along the arc of your breast,
through the cadence of your ribs,
over the plain of your belly
and drawing the warm rain
from between your thighs,
from you.
My tongue speaks to your skin
your...
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and the word it has for you,
and the desire it has for you
as I speak silently to your body,
as I speak along the arc of your breast,
through the cadence of your ribs,
over the plain of your belly
and drawing the warm rain
from between your thighs,
from you.
My tongue speaks to your skin
your...
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optimism:
It seriously gave me goose bumpswatching the trailer. I have to go see it and I have to go with someone dammit!
My gig was a community orchestra that I'm in. We played at an old folks home. I play trumpet. There was quite a few old people there. No one died, good thing. If I'd have played as loud as I normally do, someone might have, I think.
Our police force here has a helicopter. It has been going around my building fairly consistently recently. Like around and around. I swear it wasn't me.
I go to the quiz (trivia night) every Monday. My team was close to winning. Two questions that we got wrong would have done it.
Hm. I'll have to look on my map. I don't think I've been to Indiana.
Seriously- Beautiful.
My gig was a community orchestra that I'm in. We played at an old folks home. I play trumpet. There was quite a few old people there. No one died, good thing. If I'd have played as loud as I normally do, someone might have, I think.
Our police force here has a helicopter. It has been going around my building fairly consistently recently. Like around and around. I swear it wasn't me.
I go to the quiz (trivia night) every Monday. My team was close to winning. Two questions that we got wrong would have done it.
Hm. I'll have to look on my map. I don't think I've been to Indiana.
Seriously- Beautiful.
optimism:
I prefer to think of it as what keeps silence at bay. Mind you I have an internal soundtrack that plays constantly.
redwinterroses:
Random pics
Feeling a bit better today. A little emotionally exhausted (probably doesn't help that I never sleep either), a little long winded, and a bit philosophyical (as I so poetically said it earlier). But while we (the royal we, and the voices in my head) are on the edge of our seats for this to pass, I would like to share with you a fun little...
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thelastasthmatic:
or maybe the doorframe to your closet..
elchupacabra:
yeah i wanted to get closer to the windmill but it was shut 
erm its missing 2 sails apparently but i think it does function
erm its missing 2 sails apparently but i think it does function
The depth of my sorrow overwhelms me. I lie motionless in a still, hollow dark. The sound of my pulse in my ears dissolves beneath the weight of a suffocating silence, save for your haunting voice. Your desperate pleas flow in slow contented circles, whispers in the fluid motion of shadows, memories that have become my shroud. A faint inaudible gasp struggles to pass between...
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thelastasthmatic:
i woke this morning to thoughts o' maple syrup...
optimism:
Hey. Hope you're not still bummed. I was hoping a smiley from a random stranger would be good.
So she will be at the provincial museam tomorrow- not too far from my house. I'll probably go and try to make my move then. I think it'll be the only chance I get.
So she will be at the provincial museam tomorrow- not too far from my house. I'll probably go and try to make my move then. I think it'll be the only chance I get.
redwinterroses:
A collection of art
...Guess not. I really very much prefer live interaction that tiny little messages. Failing that, IM chat. So, I will hope to still catch you one day soon.
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