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here's some more because i am bored:
this is a problem. every square inch of my room is covered in shit...

i am so not cool...

the view out my window...

me hiding behind my orchids...

today i have lots of random little things in my hair. pink plastic bow, green chopsticks w/ plastic neon monkeys, and flowers -of course...



i'm looking back on the week and it seems it consisted of alot of stress, freaking out, turtle-watching (i'm addicted), failure, laughs, friends, and a whole lot of truly lovely love-making...sigh...
my mind feels kinda numb right now.
this is what i know:
*i have the most amazing partner in life, crime, love, whatever, that i could have ever hoped for. thank you, baby!
*i love everything about this fucking ugly world and i want to experience so much
*i am not going to take anything too seriously because when one door closes, there are a hundred more waiting to be opened
this is what i don't know:
*what am i gonna do when i get back from FL and GA?
*how is my mom gonna feel about recent decisions that i have made about taking my life into my own hands?
*how the hell am i gonna be ready to leave for a week by noon tomorrow?

well, as most of you know I am being taken on an all expenses paid trip to FL and GA to check out some art schools. (I am such a lucky girl. why me?) I will come back with lots of pictures and hopefully a more clear and refreshed state of mind.
so i hope everyone has a great week, and to all you lucky fucks who are gonna be enjoying the amazing shows of SXSW, fuck you! just kidding, have a great time and i wanna hear all about it when i get back.

in closing let me just say: Memento Mori, remember death. our only gaurantee is this moment.
oh and uh, here's another picture of turtles: