rebeldogg

It is the evening of the day
I sit and watch the children play
Smiling faces I can see
But not for me
I sit and watch
As tears go by

My riches can't buy everything
I want to hear the children sing
All I hear is the sound
Of rain falling on the ground
I sit and watch
As tears go by

It is the evening of the day
I sit and watch the children play
Doin' things I used to do
They think are new
I sit and watch
As tears go by

- The Rolling Stones -- "As Tears Go By"

Crap.

My friends are avoiding me... maybe not. They work late, and I know they worked today. But they owe me beaucoups money. If I don't get at least a portion of it by Monday, I'm going to have to leave a lot of stuff behind that I don't want to leave. I'm just afraid that I know what they're doing right now, and they'll come up to me later and be like, "I don't have the money this week." Plus I need help fixing my truck. It's my main source of money (and the main drain) and I need to get it fixed before I leave. I can sell it after I'm gone, but not if it's still broke.

It's going to cost me over two hundred dollars to ship two guitars and a box full of stuff. The box full of stuff is mostly weighed down by my GNX3 and my Gibson G20 combo amp. Then I threw in my Crybaby and EB Volume pedal, then some random crap. But it's all crap I don't want to live without for too long. I can put a lot of stuff on the side to ship up after I get some income, but I want this stuff up ASAP... I've got my PPG pillow in there...

I don't know why it's taking me so long to pack. I don't really have all that much. Just clothes, Xbox, CD's, movies, porn, blow up doll, some other crap... I hate waiting till the last minute, but I can see it happening.

I just want to get all of this shit over with. I'm not looking forward to the airport experience. I just want to be in California, recieve my stuff safe and sound from FedEx, and sit back for a minute with a cold beer and try to figure out what's next.

(insert joke here)

P. S.

At some point this weekend I'll be gathering up all of my computers and random parts for dispersal. I'll be taking this machine apart and making a quick Frankenstein so I can keep in touch with my band, since they don't have a comp. I've got so many computer parts and crap... I got rid of a shit load of it a long time ago, and I'm still triping over shit.

Anyway, that means that I'll probably be making my last post pretty soon.

If that in any way effects you, seek help. Immediatly. I'm serious.

I fucking hate my life... I can't wait to leave it behind and start over, even if the thought of leaving scares the living crap out of me.