Long time since I've done one of these. Im terrible about keeping up with things like this. Lets see, where to begin. I've changed jobs again recently, actually it was on my birthday this year. I used to do emissions work for Isuzu, but Im a hands on kind of guy and sitting behind a computer all day was driving me insane. Not to mention making me fat lol. I went back to being a dealership technician, but I made the leap from VW up to Porsche. Thats right, I'm a fancy grease monkey now! I also bought my first house back in november. Having a place to call your own is a fantastic feeling. A fantastic feeling that wears off rather quickly once you realize that everything is now on you to do, or to get done lol. Its not bad though. Im learning a lot about being handy with things not vehicle related. Im going to be learning a lot about roofing here very soon. My insurance decided against covering my garage because the shingles look old. Kinda sucks, but whatever. I think my biggest challenge has been learning how to live alone again. I did it for a while at college after my roommate joined the army. It was nice for a little while, but the loneliness set in after a while. Granted, Im not totally alone. I do have my two cats, but its not the same as having a person around. I also moved away from most of my friends, its less than an hour from where I lived before, but it still puts a strain on finding time to get together and do things. Im not the kind of person that makes new friends easily either, so my already limited social life has taken a pretty good hit.
I haven't made any progress at all on getting help for my depression, and its getting worse because of it. I cant stand the way I feel, but at the same time I can't find the motivation to fix it. Apathy rules my life. I literally feel like a passenger in my life, whereas I should be the driver. I don't care what happens, I have no motivation to do anything, to fix anything, or to work on my confidence issues. Thats a whole 'nother bucket of worms in itself lol. I don't know why exactly Im throwing all of this out there, and I've kind of lost my train of thought as I've been writing this. Maybe I'll make another post soon with the rest of what I was thinking about. I'd like to say that I'll update again soon, but Im not promising anything. We'll see where this goes. Also, there should be a "random ramblings" category.
I haven't made any progress at all on getting help for my depression, and its getting worse because of it. I cant stand the way I feel, but at the same time I can't find the motivation to fix it. Apathy rules my life. I literally feel like a passenger in my life, whereas I should be the driver. I don't care what happens, I have no motivation to do anything, to fix anything, or to work on my confidence issues. Thats a whole 'nother bucket of worms in itself lol. I don't know why exactly Im throwing all of this out there, and I've kind of lost my train of thought as I've been writing this. Maybe I'll make another post soon with the rest of what I was thinking about. I'd like to say that I'll update again soon, but Im not promising anything. We'll see where this goes. Also, there should be a "random ramblings" category.