razor13

so, wow, my reality and my journal collided at about 5 a.m. in a hotel room at w. mac and telly...just as i was about to dose off with a smile in my mind over the simple pleasures i was awoken by a lil' birdy that had to use the bathroom and so i move out of the way and she does her thing and i start to turn the lights out and the only light in the room is the one from the tv which is playin' a 5.99 4hr. porno tape that we got at the liquor store before coming to get the room, and as i start to drift away to anabolic assmasters, the lil' twee comes out of the bathroom and asks if i will scoot into the middle of the bed, which is not my usual spot, and it is all wet, but i am feelin' friendly toward mami, so i oblige without hesitation, and she curls up under my arm and is like "i can't go to sleep right now" the seven words of doom at 5 a.m. and that inspires tanika, who i thought was passed out, to stir up and say "me niether", and i was just like "we could smoke another blunt, but i can't roll it" and they are all over it and the calm is destroyed and disembowled, so i put on a studio one mix and the girls turn down the volume and start talkin' small at me all about how great life is and good they feel and i let down my gaurd a lil' and when one of em' asks me if i wrote something about her that was any good lately and i mention that the last thing i wrote last night was this entry in my journal on SG, they know about the journal i keep here and evidently one of the girls they hang out with at work is a member so they have checked out the thing and then the younger one, tweetybird, is like we'll check it out at alana's before we go to work and then it hit me, and i was like "all i really said is that i was gonna meet some girls and and have a 3way", which kinda left the room silent for a second cuz right after i said it i realized that it sounded a lil' strange cuz i don't think tanika had told twee that was on the menu and now it was a lil' obvious, and then tanika, the older one that i have known longer was like "why would you talk about that shit on the internet?", and i felt a lil' exposed, which i am sure she did also, and so she says you been on that shit ever since linda left you( talkin' about my ex-wife, who she used to work with at mitchell bros. and crazy horse) and i came back "yeah, it has kinda been one of the ways i have been dealin'" and she said she was worried that i was gonna let the divorce fuck me up for good and that was why she talked tweetybird into doin' the whole paty til the telly thing (or 3way,which is kinda a word i realized i only like labeling an event afterward and not beforehand now), cuz she said she missed how i would come around the club and get her and her friends on the list for shit and partying in hotels and going to vegas, so i told her that i was sawed in half, but i am slowly growing back together, i just don't want to repeat old mistakes and i never want to go through what i went through these last 6 mos. ever again, so that is why i am not running around as much....but i was touched that she thought enough about me to convince another girl that i was worth even considering having a wild night out with and i felt a lil' bit better about it all as i hit the blunt that tweetybird roled haphazrdly, and i told her i could teach her the early mornin' blunt technique that would never fail her and her eyes lit up and she smiled at me and said i can't wait and i thought to myself "damn, i mighta given this lil' bitch too many pills" but then tanika handed me the bubbler with a fresh hit of kif and i finally drifted off and came as close to getting a couple of peaceful hours of rest as i have in a month, or even longer, i can't really recall right now cuz i am still groggy and satisfied, but anyway,the whole world is on interconnected spirals and you have to keep moving to find a good place and try to keep it, and if you lose it you just have to keep tryin', so when you have the chance to give, give all you can, and when its your turn to take, just take what you need, leave somethin' for later and it just might be there someday...when you need it most, even...maybe...who knows...