razor13

I watched Mars for 5 minutes last night.....throught binoculars. It fluxuates!
Do you remember that "gang" with the "death list" you were telling me about on the phone the other night? What was the name of that? Email if you want, just let me know please.

ps--You put my home girl down as your favorite!

just stopping by to say that i hope you have an amazing weekend. *massive amounts of hugs*

I'll sell you three magic beans for cheap. Ya interested?

*sending you lots of love and hugs*

Oh I'd rather go and journey where the diamond crest is flowing and
Run across the valley beneath the sacred mountain and
Wander through the forest
Where the the trees have leaves of prisms and break the light in colors
That no one knows the names of

And when it's time I'll go and wait beside a legendary fountain
Till I see your form reflected in it's clear and jewelled waters
And if you think I'm ready
You may lead me to the chasm where the rivers of our vision
Flow into one another

I will want to die beneath the white cascading waters
She may beg, she may plead, she may argue with her logic
And then she'll know the things I learned
That really have no value in the end she will surely know
I wasn't born to follow

I hate here. I like to fight here. I like to be able to be temporatily entertained here for a half hour-hour a night. But I used to be annoyed by the social aspect, now I HATE it.
The dog or the deer??
We will for sure be talking on the phone again soon.

oooo-what have you been trapping? and a problem in la?

That's cool you're getting internet. I'll be calling you in the next couple of days.
You are leaving the beach in a month? Where are you going?

sounds like some good time fun is going to be had by all.

I'll try and call early next week. The next four days are going to be crazy. Hope you are well....

"but those people keep a movin', and that's what tortures me"...the sky was alive with bursts of lightning in the distance and mars loomed in the sky, closer than it has ever been to me in a long time...the fog causes mold and that is my enemy right now, we must keep the fungi at bay so the harvest will be plenty, our life depends on it...if love was something i could touch i would grab it so hard it might not want to be near me....a bottle of patron and a bag of trainwreck is talkin and typin, not me...do the people you have murdered haunt you more than your broken hearted memories of lost love or vice versa???

*still missing you*

i hope you are doing well sweetie. *hugs*

lol, I just got on here and saw your name and I vaguely remember talking to you in my sleep last night. I'll be home Sunday night, if I didn't tell you that already,.

may i see you before you leave again?

i miss you tons.

take care my friend. *hugs*

thankyou so much for the birthday wishes.

please let me know when you are going to be around. i want to see you soon. *hugs*

I agree, nothing like something shiny to make us happy...I only bought a jetta though, so its nothing special. It is my first new car, so I was kind of feeling weird about driving it around right away. I guess sometimes people have to treat themselves to a few things in life. Hope all is well with you, man of infinite wisdom.

i once read, and now believe, that suffering comes from our ability as rational beings to avoid dealing with the necessary pain of a situation. i don't know you or your story, my friend...or if this entry is for real, but the above is what i thought as i read your journal. if you know combat, or embraced combat rather, then you know the best thing about a fight is getting hit...the shock of life/pain and the knowing that it will fade, followed by the thrill of hitting back....harder. is there any real difference with the jolt of emotional pain? or the sequence that follows?

.....i don't know, man, here's to wishing you a good day. just wandering thru, and thought i'd drop a few words.

Ugh. Fuck that empty space. You have to try and find good things to fill it back up with that are already in you. I know you have them.
I miss our talks as well, then read that. I wonder how you are doing. Have you got the few emails i have sent??? Why don't you send me an email on your phone thingie.

Will I ever hear your voice again?

i just wanted to let you know that i was thinking about you. *many hugs and good thoughts coming your way*

i miss you!

am i going to be able to see you soon?

friday?

i have tried to call you but i can't get through. call or write me back soon. i want to see you. it's been too long.