Thursday Sep 02, 2004

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lalalalala im going to get fucking drunk tonight...lalalala
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kolic:
Bravo with that. I wish I had that option. I used to consider suicide and such, now I mostly wish for an escapist's vice like that.
ttye0:
Thank you very mcuh for the compliments. I totally appreciate them all wink

Sunday Aug 29, 2004

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well i have had a crazy last two days, i had a great night last night...i went to my friends house and we drank drank DRANK....i havent been that fucked up in a long time, i had a whole bottle of wine myself and vodka also biggrin

then today i went back over to hang out and study some and i found out that they had...
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daveporterband:
RE: I ALWAYS try to have fun... even when things are cranking!

I am, however, not good with drama... spent most of my life being in the middle of it and I DON'T like it! mad But when friends are in need... it's the good people that weed through all that crap and try to be there to pick up the pieces, good for you!
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faerie:
aww thanks sweetie. things are a bit crazy -- trying to pack & work. but everything will work out.

i hope you get on a long path to happiness. i figure it might take us a while... but eventually... we'll get there wink


//all i can say about that sex is.... WHOA if it's who i think.... man oh man.

anyway...
much love.
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Friday Aug 20, 2004

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oooh i have been crazy lately surreal

well i guess not really....ive mostly been sitting around watching movie after movie and going through my magazines taking clippings out and articles that i want to use to Mod Podge. I drove 40 min yeasterday just to go to ToysRus, and i spend over 100 dollars there, found some good shit, hehe...

tonight i went over to my...
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faerie:
as much as i'd love to join the crowd and tell you to pursue nights of meaningless sex... i just can't...

i personally don't think it's a good idea to just have sex with someone you aren't in a relationship with especially if you aren't emotionally stable. i know i always thought it was a great idea, especially if it was with someone i've been with before.. and afterwards (occasionally during) i always felt worse and just wanted to cry.

call me old fashioned or... a cunt... whatever wink

but! do whatever makes you happy. kiss

//i'm glad you got some good shit at the toysRus!

hearts
.xo
punkinhead:
Don't do it if it dosen't feel right - you have to follow your instincts.

hope everything goes well,

ph

Monday Aug 02, 2004

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I just feel so fucking lost lately...i feel as if i am on this downward spiral that i have sucessfully drug myself out on for years and its just too fucking much. I am lacking in creativity, exspression, and even basic social interation skills, all things that i once was okay with...when people or things get close to me, or seem to be doing good...
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kolic:
So how you holdin' up, my pretty little birdy?
punkinhead:
Don't apologise . . . getting something like this on the computer is the first step.

Its all about steps. First clean your place up, top to bottom. That will make you feel better, and if the feng shui people are to be believed it wil help clear your energy up.

Next start your devotions. Just do one, see how it makes you feel. Seek guidance from without and you will find it within.

Whatever you need to do you have already started. I hope that this is an extremely postivie time comming up for you.

be well, hollar if you need some reinforcement.

take it light,

ph

Saturday Jul 31, 2004

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my fucking cat ran away....i hate my life skull skull skull skull skull
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iyce:
oh wow dude i'm sorry to hear that....i hope it comes back frown
mrfunkygenius:
Thats fucked up man frown

Saturday Jul 24, 2004

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things just seem weird lately, i dont know what my fucking problem is, i just feel so disconnected from everything around me, i barely make it out of the house and goddess is it a fucking mess in here eeek

i got a cat because i thought it would be nice to have something here to pet and come home to since i live alone, but...
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kolic:
My day just started and you made by making the valkryie comment. That and finally gettin' a friend on SG was nice too smile
faerie:
i haven't spoke to you in a while frown

sorry you aren't doing very well. msg me if you'd like

kiss love you

Sunday Jul 18, 2004

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well today is my birthday, and i was suppost to have a fun day today, i was going to get up early and clean the house and go get food and cake mix to make choc. cupcakes, and shit...and the power apparently went out at some point, because i woke up at 7 in the evening and was like...FUCK!!! so i got to see like...
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thespianbatboy:
*Everyone Screams Happy Birthday as I pop out of a giant cake wearing a bow tie and a thong* wink
desilou:
you need to go to bed earlier little one... i have been doing alot of work on my new apartment and someone stole my window air conditioner out of it. it is a half attic apartment those people are evil bastards.. thanks again.

Sunday Jul 04, 2004

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NOTE: this journal entry was SOOO MUCH FUCKING BETTER...however, my computer fucking went back a page when i hit the backspace key....grrr!!!

well ive been a big bum lately... skull

ive just been sitting here and watching episodes of Angel on the computer...i know i have seen every single episode around 5 times (even the unaired pilot ep)...but i just love the Buffy the Vampire Slayer...
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fyrestarter:
your cat is adorable!! she looks like a kitten i got for my dog, a boxer named Niko. biggrin
superjoint:
Thanks sweet ass kiss

They really named the cat girlfriend?

Sunday Jun 27, 2004

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iyce:
tongue
desilou:
i think that is funny sorry i have not been around in awhile but i plan on being around more... so now i must be off to update the journal

Thursday Jun 17, 2004

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I guess i have been a little fucking crazy latley, so i have chilled out a little bit and decided to move some furniture, get the Feng Shui flowing a little bit better wink and it actually looks nicer in here...yay for me!

Here is my drawing of the day, done by moi in 2001, but last night i reclolored it to make it look better:...
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cureelise:
i love your pics and your art work
cureelise:
u are more then welcome. kiss

Tuesday Jun 15, 2004

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sliverz:
Feeling good, and doing constructive things... definitely suggests doing better than before. That's good smile Glad to hear that you're doing well wink
desilou:
i am trying to arrange all my stuff around my brothers it is quite crowded. i hope you are doing well. i have really felt creative lately but everything is super chaotic over here so i have not had the time.

Thursday Jun 10, 2004

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khaine666:
humidity is the debil... the concept of that painting is great, I really dig that.
desilou:
it was crazy humid for the move on saturday. i thought i was going to die. but my crazy other half was in warp speed for the move so it was not that bad. hope things are going well for you. we finally have a place big enough for you to come visit at least for 2 months anyway. take care, call me if you need me.
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