I have been thinking for the past week or so about my time here in Vegas and just how much everything in my life has changed. I mean about 5 months ago i was slowly and surely losing my mind to my family's ridiculous issues, my ex boyfriends attempts to near kill me and my sudden need to find a new home with no ones help. How did one night at dragon con wind me up in paradise so suddenly like im in some sort of romantic movie. seriously it was like one minute i was just a sad shell of myself trying to enjoy what little I had for the convention that i used to always get into for free. i came by myself and i had pretty much nothing for a good few hours when i got there and then suddenly i meet this supercute guy who is smart and funny and way sexy. i spend a day and a half with him and even go with him to the airport. it was the most perfect day and a half i have ever lived and then a week later hes buying me a plane ticket to Las Vegas and Im living my life as happy as ever. I have seriously never been this happy in my entire life. I feel all the same feelings i have felt every time i was happy in my life simultaneously. i really feel good... and now i have the most amazing story to tell my kids (when i decide to have some of course... 19yr old Teri + babies = x_x) I dont want to let this guy go. he's really just perfect. he doesnt fight, he is up for whatever i want to do, he doesnt mind me being clingy and wanting to be near him all the time, he CONSTANTLY compliments me and loves to show me off' hes never jealous and he's trusting. to top it all off he is seriously just so fucking amazing in bed it is unreal.
Now what i have been thinking is is this seriously for real and this is how i am going to live for the next good few years of my life? because if it is then holy shit i am in heaven. but if it isnt and something equally as devastating is going to happen to me to counterbalance the amount of good and happy i am feeling right now...... I really hope thats not the case. I want to continue being happy...
i would also like another caramel frappuccino... those things are addictive.
FUCK DAMN I'm happy.
Now what i have been thinking is is this seriously for real and this is how i am going to live for the next good few years of my life? because if it is then holy shit i am in heaven. but if it isnt and something equally as devastating is going to happen to me to counterbalance the amount of good and happy i am feeling right now...... I really hope thats not the case. I want to continue being happy...
i would also like another caramel frappuccino... those things are addictive.
FUCK DAMN I'm happy.

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donzell:
enjoy your happiness and don't apologize for it.
donzell:
and live in the moment. don't fret tomorrow.