r0nin47

I think this is the longest I've gone without spending much time here.. I've just been very stressed out lately and things seem to be getting worse instead of better..

I did something very stupid tonight in an attempt to get caught up with some bills. I played in a cash game (texas holdem) with the last $300 I had to my name, thinking I'd tripple my money or better and I did... This would have been fine if I had just fucking quit while I was ahead, but I decided to keep on playing so that I could make even more money.. BAD IDEA! I'm not pissed off about how I lost though.. There was one card in the deck that could have beat me and he got lucky. I should not have been gambling with my last $300 and calling an all-in, even if I did think I had the fucking thing one! STUPID!! So I left with nothing but a bad attitude..

I'm so fucked, it's not even funny! It wouldn't be so bad if I had more work lined up for the month, but I have absolutely nothing lined up!

Life just sucks sometimes..