quasievil01

Well I'd like to share with you all a story of a personal victory, my struggle to overcome addiction.....

I've always been a user, filling my weekends and free time up whenever it was available. I think my first fix was at age 7. I know that doesn't seem very young in this day and age but keep in mind this was on the one of the first consol games, called an Intellivision. The spinney disc controller and numbered button pad, I played games I hardly remember now. Pong I believe and Battleship with my dad, and a game called Tron which was essentially just guiding lines around the T.V. screen. There was an instant attraction, the blinking lights and the blips and tinny electronic explosions. I was hooked. There were several torrid affairs after this different systems different games I didn't care where I got my fix, just that I got it. Some enablers stand out some have faded into blurry digital memory. Zaxxon and Mario Bros, on Colecovision, jump the barrel climb the ladder. The Commodore 64, and then the Original Nintendo console and with it Super Mario Bros, they called it a side scrolling revolution, and I was there. My use just went on and on, but even this paled in comparison of what was to come. You see I still had a life, other interests, the cycling club, Karate, camping, driving, girls and work. Up until a few years ago my use had been fairly recreational but that all changed 2 years ago when a spinal injury took everything else away from me, and left with nothing but time to fill. That's when I found the hard stuff. City of Heroes stole away my identity and took me to a new world where I could do anything, sometimes I would be on fix for 12 hrs a time, but just like always happens to hardcore users a friend introduced me to something newer and more potent, World of Warcraft. The rest of the world melted away I was hooked up more often then I was not, my marriage began to suffer and when my wife began to complain, I did the unthinkable.... I introduced her to my world pretty soon we never saw each other any more, any off time was spent waiting for the other user to finish with the rig. I tried to quit several times, each time I only came crawling back. My wife had more strength than I. during a Hard Drive crash when I thought I might die from the withdrawal she never came back, while I leapt right back in with both feet, alone and lower than ever... I'd hit bottom.
That might sound like it was the end for me, but I've found my way back into the light. I eased myself out with some lighter use, Dawn of War and Civilization, and slowly, painfully I became clean again. I haven't used in close to month now. I know my battle isn't over, but I'm happy to say I feel stronger now. I've let my Warcraft account lapse... I've stopped playing Dawn of War..... I'm pretty much weaning myself from my computer games.
My name is quasievil and I am a video game addict.
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