puuck

Things really suck right now. For no other reason than that I don't have the balls to face real life.

Hate to be so dramatic - it seems like I never post anything unless I'm really depressed, and then whatever I end up writing makes me look like a self-serious douchebag.

I'm sure it's true. Toxic personality alert.

I'd much rather be attracting some form...
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After three long years, someone has anonymously reactivated my account out of the blue. I have no explanation.

have you given up on me? I'm still alive.

I think I've figured out why I've always been so miserable. I've been an existentialist my entire life without ever having read any existentialist philosophy.

Cancel that. Everything jsut got 300% worse. Anyone got any ideas on how to keep me alive?

Well, I've had a bit of a reset in my life. I started staying up late and sleeping all day. I'm seeing an old girlfriend from a couple of years ago. Falling for her again. Things are okay. Don't speak too soon, but at least I'm not thinking about killing myself anymore.

The person whose blog you're reading has a secret love of people who are entirely emotionally unavailable to him.

He can't stand the thought of that special someone being able to move on after the way she let everything fall apart. it would mean she'd forgotten the promises she made and how she turned her back on them. He has very little ability to communicate...
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I hate myself. And I hate her. And I hate you.

I feel like I'm wasting away and like I don't really know anyone including myself. I also feel like I can't handle even the basic necessities of living and that if I dont' commit suicide I will nonetheless die sooner or later of simple negligence.

Well I am now the proud new occupant of a position at Wal Mart Stores INC. . . as a photo specialist trainee. I've also just finished a new track if anyone wants to hear it. I've also taken my past few chances to sabotage all of my potential new relationships, and it's worked beautiful. Alone again!

Emo music is having profound new effects on...
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I have a new friend. And tonight she's left bitemarks all over my neck.